DEPTH—The Depth Of My Faith ….

From My Presence in My beloved Thia’s journal—A dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/ Yahushua!

Monday, February 02, 2015 at 7:34 am

Amethys rose_me on the roadFather, on this 2nd day of this February You have quickened me to write a new post for The Weekend Warriors.

Well the weekend is over but that does not matter to me—I write 24/7 so I am on time, regardless!

Thus here is my new post that is actually an excerpt of the entry of the past couple of days. I have been wondering how to present such long writing to the readers in Blogging 101. Today I got my answer with the writing of a new post referring to DEPTH.

All troubled relationships stem from lack of understanding of the depth of our beings among individual members of each relationship….

Saturday, January 31, 2015 at 11:41 pm

Father, I am realizing now that my children do not know what they have and are doing to me, perhaps anger & hurt & fear has blinded them and caused them to retaliate with vengeance!

What this retaliation entails? They have practically vanished me from their existence and express so in their public life, for in their public life hardly any mention of this mother of theirs is made.

It is for me such a painful experience to hit the Facebook button and find their name and automatically start searching what my children are up to, only to find a very happy life among all their numerous friends & relatives minus the least mention that they have a mother!

I know it is none productive to even hint these things to them, for just the slightest hint throws them into a fit of anger and hate, throwing the most awful ‘you are selfish’ ‘quit your self-pity’ ‘you are insane’ ‘you are not going to put a guilt trip on me!’ ‘you are not a mother!’ ‘you have not been there for me!’ ….on and on for years such goes on!

And me? I push and push and push! Defending myself! Trying to explain! Sarcasm, humor, anger? Simply trying to make sense of it all!

Until I quit trying and started trusting You, O my Father! And O my Father, You have given me the strength to look at things objectively and accept responsibility for my part in this awful turmoil in our midst along with the fact that I have sinned, against You only have I sinned! 

Thus, Your discipline had to be applied—because you have done this now you must suffer…forgive? Yes, you are forgiven. Even so, have you forgotten what is written in Hebrews 12?

Just think of Him Who endured from sinners such grievous opposition and bitter hostility against Himself—reckon up and consider it all in comparison with your trials, so that you may not grow weary or exhausted, losing heart and relaxing and fainting in your minds.

You have not yet struggled and fought agonizingly against sin, nor have you yet resisted and withstood to the point of pouring out your own blood. And have you completely forgotten the divine word of appeal and encouragement in which you are reasoned with and addressed as sons?

My son, do not think lightly or scorn to submit to the correction and discipline of the Master, nor lose courage and give up and faint when you are reproved or corrected by Him; for the Master corrects and disciplines everyone whom He loves, and He punishes, even scourges, every son whom He accepts and welcomes to His heart and cherishes.

You must submit to and endure correction for discipline; our Father/Creator is dealing with you as with sons. For what son is there whom his father does not thus train and correct and discipline?

Now if you are exempt from correction and left without discipline in which all of Our Father/Creator’s children share, then you are illegitimate offspring and not true sons at all. [Prov. 3:11, 12.]

Moreover, we have had earthly fathers who disciplined us and we yielded to them and respected them for training us. Shall we not much more cheerfully submit to the Father of spirits and so truly live?

For our earthly fathers disciplined us for only a short period of time and chastised us as seemed proper and good to them; but He disciplines us for our certain good, that we may become sharers in His own set apartness.

For the time being no discipline brings joy, but seems grievous and painful; but afterwards it yields a peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it—a harvest of fruit which consists in righteousness–in conformity to Our Father/Creator’s will in purpose, thought, and action, resulting in right living and right standing with Our Father/Creator.

So then, brace up and reinvigorate and set right your slackened and weakened and drooping hands and strengthen your feeble and palsied and tottering knees, and cut through and make firm and plain and smooth, straight paths for your feet yes, make them safe and upright and happy paths that go in the right direction, so that the lame and halting limbs may not be put out of joint, but rather may be cured.

Father, You know that I really have forgotten these words and You know the reason why I have forgotten them until this very instant of time.

Or, have I really forgotten these words? Nay! You have seen to it to bring to my remembrance every word written in this passage, but, it has never made sense to me, so, I put it in the back of my mind until now! Why?

Because of my high level of reading comprehension. Way back when You became flesh and walked among man, You said, ‘abide in Me for without Me you can do nothing.’ Yet, here the writer is telling me/us,

So then, brace up and reinvigorate and set right your slackened and weakened and drooping hands and strengthen your feeble and palsied and tottering knees, and cut through and make firm and plain and smooth, straight paths for your feet yes, make them safe and upright and happy paths that go in the right direction, so that the lame and halting limbs may not be put out of joint, but rather may be cured.

What gives my Father? What gives? Don’t You see how easily the written words can throw us into a sea of confusion?

Some grab on to the words here written and become self-righteous by exercising their will power to do and follow the instructions here given to the best of their ability, I know because I was among that some group!

Then we have others that have fallen into the trap of grace & favor & unconditional love! In this group the many live a life of their pleasing doing whatever seems ‘good’ to them and to their leaders totally convinced that such is a pleasing life to You!

Now we come to the present trend, that is, self-realization and the attitude of ‘that’s wrong! I will do what is right!’ and proceed to make their own doctrine of philosophy or whatever you want to call what they call, ‘the right thing to do that I am doing!

Then they proceed to raise their objections to this simple faith & trust in You that You require from all us! What? They say, ‘God has given us a good mind for us to choose and God has gone through a much trouble to give us a free will! God did not create robots!’

Chee-wiz! Let me dock and miss! Let it all go over my head! Least I’ll be annihilated and eliminated from the muck there laminated in this planet there to exist!

The arrogance of the human mind! And me? I’m living in simple faith—the faith of a child! To the scholar I am foolish and gullible to believe that such a thing exists!

But to us, the foolish ones considered, those of us who are called, whether Yehudite or Greek—Americans or from any country in the world, white or black or in between, Gentiles classified, Yahushua Messiah is the Power of our Maker and the Wisdom of our Maker, period!

So? My simple faith if propagated would produce a world of robots incapable of using their brilliant minds to make this a better place to live? Perish the thought!

Yes, the scholars are correct in their condescending evaluation of what they consider us to be only foolish perpetuators of something that goes directly against the callous hearts of self-righteousness or of false doctrines of grace & favor & unconditional love that the scholars propagate!

Sorry! Have you not read the fate of the scholars as well as the likes in rank and culture of their noble births? Whether scholar or not if you are holding on to the deductions from your brilliant mind, read about the fate of the scholar, perhaps it will enable you to heed!

For the story and message of the stake (the cross) is sheer absurdity and folly to those who are perishing and on their way to perdition, but to us who are being saved it is the manifestation of the power of our Maker.

For it is written, I will baffle and render useless and destroy the learning of the learned and the philosophy of the philosophers and the cleverness of the clever and the discernment of the discerning; I will frustrate and nullify them and bring them to nothing.

O me, O mine, I’m going to get it! For I might be stepping on many toes! But truth is truth, fact is fact and I did not make the rules nor in the least was near when the Maker of those rules created the Universe along with us, smart alecs poor species of human beings that we have become!

Even so, could it be that, in spite of our belligerence the nature of our Maker remains dormant in our hearts longing, longing, waiting for the blessed moment for our Maker to stop feeding us with the bread of affliction?

For, smart alecs, rebellious and arrogant fools that we are, the Loving Creator loves us!

Yeap! And He will straiten us up if He has to fill us to the brim with the bread of affliction until we humble ourselves and capitulate our minds, hearts & wills to the nature of our Creator within us and we cry, “No more! Please give me the Bread from heaven and satisfy this hunger in my heart!”

The trouble is the immense wave of the intellectual & emotional & romantic, beautiful, ecstatic hypes permeating the atmosphere and the hearts & minds of the great majority of the inhabitants of this valley of death that we call ‘the World’!

In addition, to add salt to the wound, we have that ridiculed being by the name of Satan doing his very best to cheat, lie, still and totally beguile any and all unsuspecting fools of human beings that we are!

For we human beings are, for the most, willfully and with intensity chasing gold & fame & more at the end of a non-existent rainbow painted only in our wile imagination by Satan himself!

And I say ‘we’ because I am a human being and in the past I have been beguiled and led astray at the sound of the gold looking tinsels at the end of that rainbow that Satan offers to all human beings!

And so we suffer! While that dormant nature of our Father/Creator within our beings grieves & waits for the blessed moment for all the darkness of that hype to come to light and crash with much might!

Yes! There is hope!

Therefore, O my Father, You know that I do try to be careful, but, it never happens! My careless ways always cause me a heap of trouble until You step in and work things out for me—and all I can say is, “How did I do that?”

Truly, I am unique as the rose I intent to use in my new desktop background—no two ways about it, each one of us is uniquely arranged in the picture of our lives—such is a fascinating thing for me!

All flowers in the field & the amethyst rose that so much fascinates me, are unique & different, but, they make a unique arrangement in the lonely road going far there yonder in my life’s journey.

Thus all of us, as well as I, can make a unique arrangement to delight the eyes of the viewers in our own lonely roads!

Even so, by all means I will continue my fascination with Yahushua—my Master—my Teacher for He always leads me to the left or the right whichever way is the right way to go in my journey by His side in that far and lonely road that I travel alone singing a song towards the Son ….

Thus, He, Yahushua is the reason for the depth of my Faith!

His love in my heart for all, thia/Basilia

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