Thia’s Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. ….
Sunday, May 29, 2016 at 3:55 am
Father? You know that I’ been up since around 2 am. Now the chanters have started with their so very unpleasant to say the least of their chanting.
O my Father? Only You know why You allow all the evil in my midst take place. I refuse to question You anymore. I am going to bed. Hopefully today I finish with the book?
Sunday, May 29, 2016 at 8:07 am
Well? I got me a couple more hours of sleep. I woke up around 6 am. I fixed me a cup of coffee and went straight to work in A Mother In A Dysfunctional Family because?
I aim to finish it or at least make strides towards the end of it. Don’t know how exactly to proceed to the next chapter but I know that You are in control and You are leading me all the way.
I have nothing to worry about. In fact? Not only I have no worries but also I have the peace and rest within my being that surpasses all human understanding. (At this moment Word crashed. I got in touch with Microsoft in the chat. They set me up in a new Windows user account. I lost all my former settings. I have to start all over again but hopefully? The crashing problem is solved.)
Sunday, May 29, 2016 at 1:19 PM
Father? You know of my ordeal for the last couple of hours. You know that I am tired & sick of my own self because? I feel or think that all I do is talk, talk, talk without any weight to my talk.
Why do I think & feel that way? Because not only I see no evidence of change in my surroundings but also the same crappy situations keep repeating over & over again.
At this moment of time? I have nothing because of my mind & feelings I have lost hope that anything shall change at all.
Even so? The fact is, You are still in control of every minute detail of my life. The fact is, You have good reasons to allow my mind & feelings to torment me with vengeance! The fact is, this miserable moment that I am going through shall pass in Your due time. So?
I wait. I wait on You. No matter what I think or feel? You never leave nor forsake me. I wait on You.
Monday, May 30, 2016 at 7:59 AM
Yes it was a miserable day yesterday and You know it my Father. What was the end of it? At the end of the day, once again I concluded, “You are in control. You never leave nor forsake me. In Your due time? This miserable moment shall pass.” And it did. The result?
I am now soberer than ever before. I now can face adversity with sobriety not with emotions though that I can use my emotions to emphasize the importance of whatever You inspire me to communicate to others.
Indeed, my Father? You are leading me all the way. I have been handling things soberly but yesterday? Without any warning at all I went into a self-pity spin that lasted all day long—totally uncontrollable. Even so?
I did not lose my focus on You and You know it and You rewarded me with Your words that I have recorded before. How I came to those words? Hum! I was looking for a filler for the book I am working on. Suddenly, I read Your words,
“My child, go back to Tuesday, November 04, 2014 at 3:32 am—to the booklets I had you to publish in one of your blogs.
I scrolled down and I read,
“My child, I know of the myriad of confusing thoughts running through your mind at the present time as the result of Cory’s death. I know of your inability to let go of this matter for it is not in your nature to just forget things as many do!
I know My child because I know you! For I am the One that has molded you in the image of My Son and has given you His mind & heart to think & feel in the same way as My Son does.
And just as I dealt with My Son while He was among you I am dealing with you now. For I let My Son suffer as you are suffering now for Him to learn to obey or to listen to Me in order for Me to strengthen Him to finish the work that assigned unto Him!
Likewise, I am doing for you and for the few others that I have chosen as My mouthpieces for the present time.
Always remember My Son while He walked among man. Set your eyes on Him or read the legacy of My words written for all of you that are called by My Name.
For the written words from Me to all of you shall strengthen you to go on to the end. And My Set-Apart Spirit forever shall bring to your remembrance those words to strengthen you to finish the race that I have set for you.
Each chapter that I bring to your remembrance at any given time has been written for whoever needs it at an specific time. It’s written,
Hebrews 12:1-29 …
The words that reached my heart as I pulled the date above and read your words spoken to me and read Hebrews 12:1-29? Alright! All that happened yesterday was in order for me to,
… brace up and reinvigorate and set right my slackened and weakened and drooping hands and strengthen my feeble and palsied and tottering knees, and cut through and make firm and plain and smooth, straight paths for my feet yes, make them safe and upright and happy paths that go in the right direction, so that the lame and halting limbs may not be put out of joint, but rather may be cured. (Heb 12:11-13)
“Wow! O my Father! Every single day You make Yourself more real to me than the day before!
Monday, May 30, 2016 at 11:53 am
“My child, Pause. Reflect. At the moment I am leading you on what to use for the closing of, A Mother In A Dysfunctional Family. That is the reason why I had you hunt for the first book in that series of books I had you publish in 2014.
For the subject matter for that series of booklets will make a good ending for A Mother In A Dysfunctional Family because that subject demonstrates the way that I made the Mother in that family absolutely functional as one of My instruments to reach My children scattered in the four corners of the earth.”
WOW! How blessed I am. What more could I ever want for? I know what more I want for!
I want to finish re-writing A Mother In A Dysfunctional Family. I want to finish editing it. I want to finish formatting it. I want to get it just right in order to sell many copies of it and?
I want to quit even the trace of any distasteful hypocrisy about my motives & intentions in all I do & write.
His love in my heart for all, thiaBasilia