Talking About Confidence & Trust In My Own Self? Hahaha! There Is None. I Greatly Fear A Negative Or A Non-Response But? I Am Fully Trusting You, O My Father—O Father Of Mine …
Thia’s Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …
Thursday, June 23, 2016 at 5:39 pm
O my Father—O Father of mine? I sense Your inspiration to solve my problem? Starting a new file for the journal of my life in Your Presence.
Thursday, June 23, 2016 at 8:05 pm
At this time? Exhausted with all the activity in my computer and in my mind—I collapsed in bed. Slept on and off all night.
Friday, June 24, 2016 at 7:29 am
All is quiet at the moment but? In a few minutes the racket of out of tune screeching voices will hit the air like salt in an open wound. Me? I am learning to tolerate such disturbance with the power of love from on high.
All that I do. All that happens to me or around me? It ALL comes from Your hand of mercy O my Father—O Father of mine? It all comes to me by the power of Your love from on high to temper my character.
My heart rejoices at such realization. I know now how Yahushua and the prophets and Your twelve disciples faced the horrors they had to face. O Your unfathomable wisdom, O my Father—O Father of mine!
Indeed! In a very small scale? I am going through a situation that is not near any good thing that the American or worldly mind can imagine.
How can I truly rejoice and be glad under the straight circumstances of my moment of existence on these earthly grounds? How can I not retaliate and do something about the comfort of my capricious wants like in the past? Like any normal human being is entitled to do? Only by the power of Your love from on high, O my Father—O Father of mine.
What a blessed privilege. Where is the cringing fear of man’s disapproval? Where is my hunger for love & attention & adulation? Where are all my capricious wants, my grandiose ideas, my secret evil desires for revenge, my longings for the things I have not, my lust for human attention all of it. It all? Withering as the green herb withers and is no more!
Building confidence? O my Father—O Father of mine? You always to my mind bring so many of a good thing. To my mind You bring my child’s remark, “I have never known anyone to love as intensely as you love, mom.” What more could I ever want for?
So? What are You bringing to my mind now? Sound information about my past doings so similar to the evil things the ancient chosen people did. Ha! It’s all written in, 1 Corinthians 10:1-33 but I will only quote a couple of verses to illustrate,
Now these things befell them by way of a figure [as an example and warning to us]; they were written to admonish and fit us for right action by good instruction, we in whose days the ages have reached their climax (their consummation and concluding period).
O my Father—O Father of mine? You are now bringing back to my mind Psalms 37. Why? Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? Ah! Most certainly I paused and? I dozed off to see a birthday cake on a party table prepared for a birthday celebration. The cake was sitting at the end of the table. I saw the whoever the party was meant for try to handle the cake but? Whoever tumble the cake down from the table.
Wow! What an illustration of these two passages of Scripture You are bringing to my mind for me to write down to make clear to me what You are doing and why You are doing the work within my being.
Ha! I am getting it all O my Father—O Father of mine? All my capricious wants are described quite well in 1 Corinthians 10:1-33 and? You are showing me now how those are all withering as the green herb withers and is no more—meaning of the cake tumbling down from the table but? Psalms 37 comes back into place,
“Commit your way to my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah /Yahushua—roll and repose each care of your load on Him; trust—lean on, rely on, and be confident also in Him and He will bring it to pass. And He will make your uprightness and right standing with our Almighty Creator go forth as the light, and your justice and right as the shining sun of the noonday.”
Wow! How timely O my Father—O Father of mine, You bring to my mind the exact words to build my trust and confidence in You and ultimately in all my doings and whatever happens in my world.
Wow! So? That is why You have made a way for me to take Bryan’s course and? Not only taking the course but also to get better acquainted to this Bryan Cohen—a child of Your heart just like I am.
Man O man! Talking about confidence & trust in my own self? Hahaha! There is none. I greatly fear a negative or a non-response from Bryan as well as from all, but? I am fully trusting You, O my Father—O Father of mine for You to make Bryan and all receptive to what You are doing in all of our lives.
His love in my heart for all, thiaBasilia.