From My Presence in My beloved Thia’s journal—A dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/ Yahushua!
Tuesday, February 03, 2015 at 2:01 pm
This is your new mom. It seems to me, from my records, that there are preset dates for all major changes in the way that I conduct myself.
This time the date was set for November 4, 2014—that day marked the end of 6 years since I set my feet in this building and my eyes on Ahmad, and, the beginning of my 7th year still in the company of Ahmad.
Once again, a major radical change has taken place within me and it is showing, but, only to the ones that want to see that change.
To the rest I am the same as I always been. My long writings are for nothing, so, there is no use to continue to write them indiscriminately.
I am thankful that you thought enough of me to write the words that you have written. I accept your love and your forgiveness. You are welcome to write whenever you so wish to do.
Even so, I know that this mail will, perhaps, be taken for whatever it is not meant to be in your mind or in your heart, but, my hope is no longer in words or in people, even the people that I cherish the most.
This thing about relationships, love, happy—happiness, to me? A thing of the past! Whatever opinion or idea anyone has about me and my doings, be it negative or positive, even my sinful or righteous past or present is no longer my issue.
My whole life I have struggled & fought to the max of maxs! It is time for me to rest! I have no longer the need to explain or defend myself.
I don’t understand anything and have no answers at all. But there is no need for my understanding or for my answers—the world does not revolve around me!
My only need is to focus and keep my eyes on the One that set me free from my own self, He is the source & the finisher of my faith.
Thus by all means, my hope is in the Mighty Father/Creator of our beings—He is working for the good of all of us and that’s all that matters to me.
Again, you are welcome to write whenever you so wish to do. My heart is open for you. And I wish & hope for the best for all of us.
His love in my heart for all, thia/Basilia