You know, O my Father—O Father of mine, You know how weary I am these days. You know how much Ahmad’s ill condition disturbs me. It seems that when things go not his way, Ahmad gets ill and totally incapable to do anything that needs to be done in order for us to eat and survive the crisis at hand.
I hope on this day to make some head away talking to Ahmad about this matter if only You quicken Ahmad to come my way. For I sense that Satan prevents Ahmad from his visits to me. Even so, You are in control of Satan.
So, perhaps such is the reason why I am writing these things. I do not recall writing in this way before. I wait on You to decipher this matter for me even today.
Tuesday, August 2, 2016 at 12:05 am
Alright! O my Father—O Father of mine, I know now for sure this is a new beginning for me. Hopefully also for Ahmad. For one and most important thing? As of the end of the first day of the 8th month, I made up my mind to quit trying to get approved period!
You have inspired the book. You have inspired me to investigate the market for the book to teach me exactly what I am not to do. Now You are inspiring me to publish what You have given to me at this point.
I will do as You are leading me to do whether the experts approve or not. I might never, ever sell a single copy of Overcoming Dysfunction Supernaturally. So what? There is not one smidgen of desire in me to become rich & famous.
Every single day You show me the amazing work You are doing in the heart of so many responders to the posts You have inspired me to post. What business have I got looking for the approval of the experts?
It’s ridiculous. One mind-set in all of them, aka, to please and get period. Me? One mind-set in me, aka, to please You! Let the experts please and get what they got, riches & fame. Me? I can’t hardly wait to see the reward You are holding for me!
Your love in my heart for all shall remain there forever no matter what, thiaBasilia.