O my Father—O Father of mine? It’s just about the end of another day. You spoke good words to me just today. Even so, I come to the end of each without any tangible results from my trust in You. What gives my Father, what gives?
I hear of so many successful people enticing others to strive for success. Me? You know my Father that I have no desire for riches & fame but, what is wrong with supplying the funds that Ahmad needs to take care of us? Is it lack of trust in me or in Ahmad? Is it laziness or lust or pride? What is it that is holding Your blessings from us?
Friday, August 5, 2016 at 2:15 am
Another day is here. Me? O my Father—O Father of mine? You alone know the reason for my slump. All sorts of things come to my mind. Even so, I know better than to trust my mind anymore. What will I say? What will I do? What am I to write? Those are all questions without an answer for me.
All things remain the same. No money. No work. Everybody knocking themselves down to get money, to get work. Struggle, struggle in so many lives. Then in so many lives? Emptiness filled with noise & nonsense. What is there for me to overcome this slump, O my Father—O Father of mine?
I will turn off the computer. I will clean my place. I will wash my cloth. I will cook. I will take a shower & wash my hair. Thanks, O my Father—O Father of mine? I am not alone. You are with me. At all times in or out of the slumps that come to disturb my peace.
Friday, August 5, 2016 at 10:57 am
Thanks, O my Father—O Father of mine? The slump is over. You gave me the victory over all evil thoughts slumping me down. Yes, of course, any and all know to conquer by way of positive thinking or engaging in one task or the other. Easily said than done.
Me? What’s the big deal about me doing what everybody else knows to do? Hum! Very easy to tell someone in the dump to do just that. Me? For years on end I tried, tried and tried any and all suggestions to think positive, to do this or that to no avail. Alone or in the crowd, the persistent evil thoughts would churn in my mind violently no matter how I tried to overcome them.