Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …
Saturday, October 22, 2016 at 6:13 am
O my Father—O Father of mine, You speak to me in dreams. This last two dreams could have thrown me for a loop but, I see them only coming from You to establish me not in fantasy. What is the reality of my present situation in my journey on the highway of the world? You tell me, O my Father—O Father of mine; for I am getting to the breaking point where I cannot determine what is what in a way; in another way, LIGHT! ENCOURAGEMENT! CONFIDENCE IN THE RIGHT PLACE ARE RENEWED! Why?
Because of the events and dreams that I am going through. So far all my dreams have been positive until a moment ago. Funny thing, I am not troubled about such dreams. Only wanting to hear from You. I wait on You. For I know those two dreams are part of Your warning of what to expect without fear or doubt in You.
Saturday, October 22, 2016 at 11:16 am
O my Father—O Father of mine? You know that when I can’t figure out how to do something, I get bent out of shape. Perhaps that was the meaning of my dreams of last night. But there is no need to get bent out of shape. My focus needs to be in You. If I can’t figure out something, I must keep my composure and wait until You show me the way.
That’s easily said than done. You know that to be the fact. You also know that such are the moments when we decide to take over and forget all about You. Your providence to supply us with all that we need in all occasions is totally ignored. It’s like You do not exist. It’s like if I don’t do whatever for myself it won’t get done! It’s the moment when we grab on to any or all the ‘I can do anything that my mind sets to do’.
Well, here comes the uniqueness of my present attitude. I know I can do anything that my mind sets to do but, I refuse to do anything that my mind sets to do! Am I crazy? Am I a copout? NAY! That is what we all are supposed to do IF we want to enter the Kingdom of heaven.
Of course, who cares about the Kingdom of heaven when hunger or want of any kind comes to visit? Lean not in my understanding? Become like a little child? What kind of impossible talk is that? Hahaha! That’s Yahushua’s talk and, you right, it is an impossible talk—how, in heaven’s name can we not lean on the brilliant minds that we think He has gifted to us?
That’s just it! We think that our brilliant minds are a gift from our Creator but, pity for us all, our minds are not our Father’s gift. Our minds are the curse that we were born under. No, no, no! Don’t argue. Don’t quit reading. It is the truth; we were born under the curse. I got a point but, so what? What good it is to have a point? The whole thing is still beyond my understanding.
Regardless, that is something that Father is taking care of and I am not to concern myself about it any longer. That’s the beauty of becoming like a little child. Only, becoming like a little child does not mean for the carnal nature to disappear. Indeed, I am my worst enemy but, Father protects me even from my own self by the power of love from on high. Go figure it!
The power of love from on high works first, within my being. It is because of that unfathomable love that I can overcome my own carnal nature. It is by that power that I can refuse to live by my own understanding of anything.
The beauty of it all? The power of love from on high is descending all over the world. Thus, the recipients of such love are coming forward by all means available to freely share that love with all. Hope I make sense.
Sunday, October 23, 2016 at 5:30 am
O my Father—O Father of mine? I just spent quite a bit of time in one of my granddaughter’s Facebook page. My first granddaughter. Such wonderful memories of her childhood. She has turned out now into a beautiful, loving, kind child of Yours. She emanates love. What am I to think, O my Father—O Father of mine?
Here I am. I am and have been blasting what we estimate as love—romantic, sweet feeling that makes us think we are blessed and living in Paradise. How can anyone come like I am coming myself and tell these loving children of Yours, “NO! THAT’S NOT LOVE! That is only a euphoric feeling of your carnal nature?” Impossible.
Ah! But with You all things are possible. So, You are showing me the very things that are standing in the way of my relationship not only with my children but also with the whole world. I see now the meaning of the last two dreams I had. There was a big contraption in the highway that I was walking on. That contraction was emanating poisonous gases but, I passed by it. It seems that the contraption stopped emanating the poison at the sight of myself.
Then in the other scene of that dream my bottom teeth plate had broken and I was trying to place the broken teeth in my mouth. Ha! I now see what You are showing me. That bottom plate in my mouth represent all my past relationships. All my relationships broke once You called me into Your service. For the past 30 some years I have been trying to fit those relationships back into my life. Totally a fruitless effort. My family & friends’ relationship are simply broke. I cannot ‘fit’ or ‘fix’ them back into my now life.
Absolutely, one cannot fit the carnal into the spiritual. It just doesn’t work! Therefore, the paradigm of mankind. And? Therefore, the absolute need for our Father/Creator’s intervention. Oh? But why now? Why let things go as far as things are now? Why let evil as well as romantic goodness go to this far? Ah! But who am I to question the Almighty Creator not only of our being but also of the whole Universe? Carnal arrogance! Nonsense!
O my Father—O Father of mine? Are You fixing to blast me for questioning You? Do I need for You to discipline this child of Yours?
Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? Pause and reflect on the hardships you are going through now. Are you learning to see both spectrums of good and evil from My point of view? Are you not looking at the maximum of goodness in your granddaughter’s lifestyle without causing you to judge or wave in panic because you know that what you see is only a mirage of the goodness in My Being?
Why should I blast you for bringing your fears & doubts, your questionings to Me instead of setting yourself up to correct all matters you see that are not fitting with what I have taught you? Indeed, O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, indeed you delight My Being. No blasting of any kind for you. Instead of blasting you I am setting you free from all misconceptions you might still have about My ways. In the process, I am turning you into the sharp instrument in My hands that will cut through all barriers that the enemy of your souls has set up for you all.
Rejoice and be glad, O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, for soon, sooner than you expect it, all things are going to drastically change for you and for Ahmad and for all of your concern. Wait. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, WAIT with patience & composure. Wait.
Hahaha! HalleluYah! I have no choice, O my Father—O Father of mine, I have no choice but to WAIT—You got me locked into Your everlasting arms, how can I not WAIT until You put me down on the solid ground of Your power of love from on high down on these earthly grounds? But Father, can You at least provide me with some honey while I wait? …
His love in my heart for all, thiaBasilia