Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …
Thursday, November 24, 2016 at 6:27 am
I beseech You, O my Father—O Father of mine? Get me out of this limbo. Perhaps, my cry is unnecessary. Perhaps there is no need for me to be in limbo. Perhaps my only need is to remain gazing at You? Every single day, things become more clear to me. It is not that we are to live a life of chance. It is a matter of who is your ‘Boss’? Who is your ‘God’? Who controls your life?
Are you thinking, “No one controls me!”? Think again. This world is made out of laws, regulations, systems plus! Our insidious habits! Chee-whiz! Of course, should you be a Christian or adhere to any monotheistic religion, you will undoubtably quote a series of scriptures claiming the Almighty to instruct us to keep the laws & rules because the Almighty says so. Because those are for our own protection but!
Do you really mind such instructions for that reason or, you simple abide by them because you? …Maybe … What is your motive? Is it not for plain & simple selfish gain?
Let’s not kid ourselves. I am human, I know the drill. O but how easily we can find other Scriptures to support our lapses. Oh? Yeah! I did it consciously and deliberately because, I was ‘holier than thou?’ Hahaha! Yeah, I was always finding ‘loop holes’ in the Almighty’s instructions and go my way with a smug face of triumph over all those foolish ones that lacked the understanding of yours truly.
Ridiculous but! I was famous & well-liked & celebrated. Unfortunately, I was not so in the eyes of my Loving Father/Creator! The day of confrontation came for me and? My face went straight to the ground of these earthly grounds! “I thought I knew but, now I see the impudence of my claims. I repent in dust & ashes!” Up went my cry!
Ah! At last “Poor Basilia” will mind the Almighty and do like we do! Yeah, back to Bible School. Back to ‘church’. Be humble. Quit your ‘holier than thou attitude’. Humbly submit to the ‘church’. Alright! I’ll so do!
Twelve years later? In the emergency room at the point of death! No kidding! Four months later? The mighty whirlwind descends on “Poor Basilia” again! This time for keeps. This last time? September 15, 2007. Eight years later, on this Thursday, November 24, 2016?