To Be Genuine. Am I Genuine? Hum! I Tremble…

Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …

Monday, December 26, 2016 at 4:59 AM

My Father, You are an awesome Yah! To this date You promised to give me back what I gave up for Your sake. In the last few days Ahmad & I have been ironing out our differences. Yazeed expressed how I have changed for the best.

Yesterday, I was notified of my first sale of my book in Japan; there will be money deposited in my account within the next 3 days. The family reassured me of their love. Denise bless me with an I love you video. Roxana bless me with a gift of love. Likewise did Diana. Are You faithful to Your promises or are You not?

It’s been exactly 9 months to the date since You provided the roof apartment of my dreams for me. The number 9 means, A new beginning in Your Spirit. What has transpired in the past 9 months? Amazing & radical change in my attitude about life and all pertaining to it! Wow! What a Mighty Yah You are! You are blessing me far beyond my wildest expectations!

Monday, December 26, 2016 at 6:49 AM

O the wonders of a life lived in Your Presence, my Father! Whether my carnal nature aims to take control or not, You are in control of it. Thus, my imaginary fears & doubts have no effect any longer. No fear of fear itself. Better yet, as I express my fears and dismissal of them? Ahmad & family take notice for their benefit and mine!

In plain words, genuine does not equate with systematic behavior. It does not equate with false humility. It does not equate with the worldly concept of peace & love. It does not equate with the wisdom of this world. It does not equate with anything devised by the human mind period.

Genuine equates with spontaneity. Freedom. Creativity. Adaptability. Consideration for others. Knowledge of personal limitations & strengths. Fearless but fun loving personality. Love inexplicable for the Father/Creator, for one’s free self, for others either free or not yet free in that order.

Systems, whether religious or otherwise are the jails incarcerating most human beings but! Such systems will be no more by the power of love from on high.

Monday, December 26, 2016 at 3:58 pm

O my Father—O Father of mine, What is the sense in anger? There are so many hurdles in the path of our lives. There are as many of us getting all bent out of shape because of the lack of power to overcome such hurdles. It is impossible for any of us to remain calm under adverse circumstances. Yes, many are there gifted with such ability. Me? You have not gifted me such.

Whenever adversity comes my way is like the most important thing in the whole world. My ‘egoic’ nature goes into high controlling gear—ATTENTION! Mind MY PROBLEM or get out of my sight! Anger. Lack of consideration for anyone. Violence personify gets a hold of my soul! Then? Remorse. I am sorry. Really? Nay! I am not sorry! I am cold! I am miserable! An you, you, you!!! You just don’t care! You? O my Father—O Father of mine? You remain unchanged. You don’t care? Is that so?

Tuesday, December 27, 2016 at 2:15 am

O my Father—O Father of mine? But how You expose my wicked carnal self! Am I genuine? How can I be genuine and yet relish in likes and hoping to get the coveted attention all human beings sell their souls to obtain? That’s the question I must answer before is too late. That’s the question I must answer to start a solid walk by the Set-Apart Spirit of the Father/Creator. Once again I must answer it.

“I thought to be genuine but! Now I see my pitiful assumption in the Light of Your Presence. My shrilling cry goes up. Against You and You alone that insidious carnal thing within me stealthily seeks to set man in the throne of my heart. Have mercy on me! Psalms 51 comes into play once again. With King David I emphasize my plea.

Psalms 51:1-19
Have mercy upon me, O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua, according to Your steadfast love; according to the multitude of Your tender mercy and loving-kindness blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly and repeatedly from my iniquity and guilt and cleanse me and make me wholly pure from my sin!

For I am conscious of my transgressions and I acknowledge them; my sin is ever before me. Against You, You only, have I sinned and done that which is evil in Your sight, so that You are justified in Your sentence and faultless in Your judgment.

Behold, I was brought forth in a state of iniquity; my mother was sinful who conceived me and I too am sinful. Behold, You desire truth in the inner being; make me therefore to know wisdom in my inmost heart. Purify me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; wash me, and I shall in reality be whiter than snow.

Make me to hear joy and gladness and be satisfied; let the bones which You have broken rejoice. Hide Your face from my sins and blot out all my guilt and iniquities.

Create in me a clean heart, O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/ Yahushua, and renew a right, persevering, and steadfast spirit within me. Cast me not away from Your Presence and take not Your Set Apart Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your deliverance and uphold me with a willing spirit.

Then will I teach transgressors Your ways, and sinners shall be converted and return to You. Deliver me from blood-guiltiness and death, O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua, the Almighty of my deliverance, and my tongue shall sing aloud of Your righteousness—Your rightness and Your justice.

O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua, open my lips, and my mouth shall show forth Your praise. For You delight not in sacrifice, or else would I give it; You find no pleasure in burnt offering.

My sacrifice, the sacrifice acceptable to You O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/ Yahushua is a broken spirit; a broken and a contrite heart broken down with sorrow for sin and humbly and thoroughly penitent, such, O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua, You will not despise.

Do good in Your good pleasure to Zion; rebuild the walls of Jerusalem. Then will You delight in the sacrifices of righteousness, justice, and right, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering; then bullocks will be offered upon Your altar.

I now see and understand like never I did before. The whole issue of our doings is first between You and each one of us individually! The first and most important command!

I also see that, most of my life I strived, along with all my peers to keep the second command ahead of the first never realizing the severity of our sin. WOW! So, that’s the lesson You have now imprinted within me with all the latest happenings among ourselves. Thanks, O my Father—O Father of mine? You alone are my Master. You alone are entitled to judge, convict, and manifest Your forgivingness of our sins. May Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

His love in my heart for all, thiaBasilia.