O my Father—O Father of mine? There is no ending to the ways You lead & teach me all things for my benefit and the benefit of others. Thus, I am sure this time this addiction of mine will be no more! For You are in control of every minute detail of my doings. You quicken me on the spot what I need to do. I am to fast for the ten days that take to detox my body.
I know by past experience, the tremendous benefits of fasting not only for health but also to cast out the demons that get a hold of our bodies at the drop of a hat but! I also know it is not the actual fast that matters. What matters is one’s motives. Am I fasting only to please my ego? Am I fasting only to show off? Or, am I fasting under the leading & power of Your Set-Apart Spirit for nobler reasons other than just to please my egoic nature? That’s the gist of the matter.
Saturday, December 31, 2016 at 11:31 am
Thanks, my Father! O my Father—O Father of mine? I am already feeling better. Just to know You are in control of my being and my life makes a world of difference. What it means to be present?
Saturday, December 31, 2016 at 10:12 pm
The question at 11:31 am. The answer not until I was settling in under my covers around 10 pm. What was I musing as I got under my covers? Musing about the world’s New Year’s upheaval. Thinking about my past consumed in that world’s affair. Musing. Beginning with exuberant claims for a new future better than the present. Ending with the answer to my question, What it means to be present?
Ha! The remembrance of those empty days of folly came. My gratitude for my present days of wisdom remains steady. I concluded, “You are my portion. You are my Present, Past, and Future. I live in the Present in Your Presence. No need for empty celebrations to satisfy the lusts of the flesh. Constant celebration. Joy inexplicable. Future & past have all faded fast. Present in Your Presence is the reality of my now life. Yes, 2017 is here for me presently. It’s a new life that has already begun! O yes! I can now get back under my covers. I can now rest underneath the everlasting arms!