Sunday, January 1, 2017 at 12:35 pm
O my Father—O Father of mine? Musing. The reality of being genuine. It is not fun nor funny. Strength & power? Yes! That’s what it takes. You know it my Father. Three days ago I put up several questions to You: “Father, is it time for me to go? Where am I to go my Father? The dreadful time is at the door for what is happening with the kings of this earth. Their aim to destroy Jerusalem is about to flourish. There is only one way out. Repentance. Otherwise? I tremble for all unrepentant ones.
Father, O my Father—O Father of mine? Three days ago I was imagining all kinds of evil about Ahmad’s absence. Today, I am not imagining. Today is the first day of the year 2017 accordingly to this world’s calendar. I am musing not imagining. Deep in thought in all You are & have been doing in my life. Even so, sadness invades my being. I wish I could cry.
No, I am not depressed. I am not angry nor disgusted. You know that my Father. Only on this especial day for people in general, I sense in my heart a deep sadness. A sadness too deep to describe. I am sensing Your sadness. Why not? Why not?
Just to muse about all happenings between 1985—2007—2016 makes me sober. Nine years in this region of the world. Thirty one years altogether since You began my transformation. Everything has been recorded. Numerous souls touched by those records. My children and close friends remain un-touched. Not unlike Your children and chosen ones.
Even so, though You shed tears as You move me to do myself, there is hope. There is always hope. Why? Because, though You shed tears to see Your children happily marching to their inevitable doom…Behold! Your power of love from on high.
Your power of love from on high keeps & sustains me. No matter what? No matter who? I will sit still and wait for Your deliverance as per Your instructions. Psalms 37, Psalms 46:9-11, and 2 Chronicles 20:17 tells me exactly what it is; what will be; and who am I? Psalms 37 Psalms 46 and 2 Chronicles 20 Be still
I am aware of the wisdom of human kind. The wise man (the philosopher). The scribe (the scholar). The investigator (the logician, the debater) of this present time and age. They claim there is no heaven or hell or Satan. No right or wrong. No need to look up to the Creator. No mention of the Ten Words written in stones. Though they quote selected Scriptures to prove their teachings, they do not believe the Scriptures.