Pat,
The carnal self always wants to have the last word. Am I having the last word? Spare me the gruesome details. Whether your last word or mine, got nothing to do with nothing. Who cares? The fact is that we have to live with our carnal self. We are so ridiculous. Why tell me about my carnal self? why accuse me? O yes, I know you have the ‘right’ excuse for all your doings. It does not matter. None of your answers matter.
I do not call you to get such stupid remarks. I call you to share how Father takes care of my carnal self’s struggles to control myself and everybody else. If you feel threatened by my doings, that’s your prerogative. No need to continue sharing. We are only blowing smoke. No spiritual benefit. My carnal self gets offended but! His nature in me causes me to see how my carnal self gets not only offended but also angry, disgusted, discouraged, frustrated, Why? Because I do not want to see anyone jealous, envious, competitive, judgemental always pleading to be good, always claiming to know.
I refuse to know anything! I told you all that! So, what’s for me to do about it? Recognize it. Expose it. The sooner I recognize & expose it? that’s the minute the nature of our Father shines forth. You don’t believe me? Your carnal reasoning no longer matters. Think whatever you want to think. Make your own deductions. Whatever you approve, disapprove, agree or disagree I could care less! I do not need any of it! That’s honest anger. Because you are attacking the Father’s nature in me! You are challenging me to doubt the integrity of my confessions. You are challenging me to confuse His nature in me with my wicked carnal nature. Father knows it. He is my Vindicator. May He bless you with an insight of that sickening ‘politeness’ that so disgusts not only me but anyone that has any sense of being real & genuine.
No need for me to hear sweet & sickening reason from anyone’s wicked carnal nature. I am angry but I am also glad to see things for what they are without losing one smidgen of my trust & confidence in Him. On the contrary, each challenge to my integrity doubles that trust & confidence that He is working all things together for our good.
As per instructions, on my way to online and post. Perhaps later on today. Perhaps tomorrow. I don’t know. Whenever Father leads me to post & publish, I will do.
