I thank You for this place. I thank You for my supplies. I thank You for everything but, most of all? I thank You for Your Presence. O my Father—O Father of mine? I thank You for keeping Ahmad and my children and my friends away from me. You are my Portion. I don’t want anyone else but You.
Wow! That is that! I am One with You. Outside of You, I do not wish to be One with anyone else. Each one of Your children has the right to our inheritance. Unfortunately, we are all prodigal sons or daughters—we have claimed our spiritual inheritance. We have wasted it away by the power of our carnal minds. We are coming now to the end of such spiritual treasure. What now?
That’s where my bewilderment and grieving comes into play. There is no way the Spirit within my being can ignore His children behavior—looking for love in all the wrong places. Ah! Here they were bumped into a pig pen of suffering & despair, so what? Let’s get out of this pig pen! Let’s find the castle of our dreams! We can! Is the motto. Repentance? Whatever for?
Oh yeah, I repent of being negative. I repent of not using my mind before. I repent of not loving myself. All that is now changed. I have found myself. I love myself. I love all people. Unconditional love. I am one with all. My word? What a beautiful person! That’s it! Let’s all unite in the spirit of unconditional love!
Sarcastic? That I am and, so were You when You walked among man. What am I doing? O my Father, what am I doing? Expressing my discontentment? Bickering & judging others because they are not flocking to celebrate me? Perhaps. In all events, You are in control of every minute detail of my existence. I have nothing to fear. Whether my emotions are elevated at the sight of pleasure or demoted otherwise, my lot is cast. You are my Portion. Nothing to fear. Not even my own thoughts & feelings.
So? Where am I at? Let me see the beginning of this writing. Ah! ‘What Am I Doing? I Don’t Know! Father Knows. Good Enough. I’m Going To Sleep…‘—The tile for this writing. Good enough. You know. You care. You are in control of it all. The router is gone. I have no way to ask for it back. Without a router, I am handicapped. You know it. I am going to sleep.