Better yet, why do we connect and are stuck with each other no matter the seemingly cruelty of my expressions to you? Why you keep coming back to me? In the depth of my being I rejoice & welcome you. After a while? I begin to hear your use of the written words that you so live by. I begin to wonder. Days go by. Every time you quote the Scriptures to me, my heart constricts and I wonder. And I hold my tongue. I do not want to debate or argue. I don’t want to offend you.
I come to our Father. I cast my burden unto Him. I reason with Him. Pat is the only one You have allowed to remain besides Joyce. Why Pat irks me and not Joyce? Wow! Joyce is not religious but Pat is so religious she can drive me up the wall with her religious mind & soul! Hahaha! There you have it! Last night? I let her have it big time! Know what? The strength of His love triple between us last night. Wow!
Here is the scene: Pat begins to share with me how she is listening to the famous so & so teaching her. In the meantime, her son interrupts her listening to that teaching. Her son needs and is reaching out to her but! She is listening to this most important teacher. She cannot tend to her son just then. Gives her son some of the words from the teacher. Hung up the phone. When the teaching is finished, she is ready for her son and…O bless her heart! She is sharing all of this with me in the most subtlest of boasting on her wisdom she claims to be from her ‘Lord’.
Before I could blink an eye, I spoke, “Pat, we have Romans one and Romans 2. You know what? We are living in Romans 2! Every time you mention your religious doings with me, Romans 1 & 2 pops in my mind. My heart constricts in the most painful way. The Spirit within me grieves! You are stuck in self-righteousness!”
O man! O man! O man! What have I done? I done mess up the only link to this world. Now what? I pranced about my beautiful apartment in total physical discomfort. On top of everything, the computer acting up. I purchased a program to solve my problem but, the weirdest thing took place with my order, I miss spelled my email so the order was not delivered to my inbox. The order disappeared but the charge to my bank did not. Thanks goodness Joyce has come to my help. Also, disgusted with all the hype going on in my inbox. Not knowing which way to turn. I go to sleep.