Codependency. Unforgiveness. Mental Insanity. Breaking The Shackles.

Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …

Friday, May 12, 2017 at 6:43 am

O my Father—O Father of mine? It looks like people got so much grammar and knowledge under their skull, it is impossible for them to accommodate one more single character much less too many exclamation marks. Let them be. I can’t let it disturb me. I am going on. Marks or not. Grammatically or aesthetically correct or not. Your words I must post. Otherwise? All hope could be lost.

Friday, May 12, 2017 at 11:33 am

Down I am. Stuck on my thoughts. What is it going to take for the people to Your call to respond? Second day alone with such thoughts. Lift me up. O lift me up, my Father, lift me up!

What am I to expect? Have not conception in that respect. You the One Who set up the authorities over me. You the One Who tells me I must respect the authorities. Are those authorities failing me? Or am failing to respect those authorities? Am I wanting to control? Am I in distress because You won’t let such control of me get a hold?

I must obey Your words to me, but! The controlling thoughts won’t rest to my distress. I want free to be. O wretched me! I cannot myself set free! Lift me up. O lift me up, my Father, lift me up!

Friday, May 12, 2017 at 5:07 pm

Father? Perhaps what I am striving with is, again, the issues You do not resolve for me on the dot! How dare I? But that seems to be the case. Over & over the same tedious issue. “I am down! Do something to get me up!” Never once realizing the impertinence of the mandate. Who am I? The clay mandating the Potter?

O my Father—O Father of mine? Thanks for Your everlasting patience with this child of Yours. Thanks for this private place where I can pitch my fits for Your eyes only. Thanks for setting me from codependency on Ahmad or anyone else. What? Where that word ‘codependency’ popped into my mind and then unto the keyboard?

That word so freely used in my psychiatric treatment time, not once before now, the thought of it came into my mind.

Definition of codependency

:  a psychological condition or a relationship in which a person is controlled or manipulated by another who is affected with a pathological condition (such as an addiction to alcohol or heroin); broadly :  dependence on the needs of or control by another

So that’s what this whole episode been about. So that’s been the hold up between Ahmad & I? Wow! What a revelation! And how timely!

  • The truth to set me free dawn on me.
  • Perhaps, just perhaps that’s the sneaky hold keeping so many in the shackles of unforgiveness! Wow!

I freely pitched my fit. “I can’t forgive Ahmad!” I shouted up high!

My profile. Who am I? Past. Present. 1. Past. A woman with a dysfunctional past big time. No matter what I did or not did? I could not function in the society of mankind. 2. Present. A functional woman—a human being under the care & protection of the Almighty Father/Creator of our beings. 3. In the past? A defeated woman saddled not only with the Dysfunctional label but also with the Bipolar, Manic Depressive & Schizophrenic labels. 4. In the present? An overcoming woman by The Power Of Love From On High up above the sky! 5. By The Power Of Love From On High up above the sky? I have overcome not only the Dysfunctional label but also all the labels this world saddles on all unsuspecting human beings. I am now an inspirational writer. I write to give witness or evidence of the Mighty Presence of our Father/ my heart & in my practical life. Whatever for? What would my witness do for you? Woa! You got me there! But, right before Yahushua was caught up in the clouds to go to the right hand of the Father, Yahushua said, Acts 1:6-8 It is not for you to become acquainted with and know what time brings [the things and events of time and their definite periods] or fixed years and seasons (their critical niche in time), which the Father has appointed (fixed and reserved) by His own choice and authority and personal power. But you shall receive power (ability, efficiency, and might) when the Set-Apart Spirit has come upon you, and you shall be My Witnesses in Jerusalem and all Judea and Samaria and to the ends (the very bounds) of the earth. … In view of the above Scriptures the writer records the journal of her daily living to give an account—to witness of the work that the Almighty Creator of our beings has done and continues to do in her life. I am a witness of the Almighty Creator of our beings in my heart & soul and in my practical daily existence! This is not a bogus claim but a reality in the life of the Author/Publisher of one of these books or SITES that you are now viewing! Thanks for your kind attention!
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