And the more I collect, the more I see the ones I have not yet collected.
And by seeing the ones I have not yet collected, I have, actually, collected a big gem: “The gem of the Knowledge of my Ignorance”.
I finished writing. I knelt down by my bed side and I praised God. I thanked God for his infinite blessings.
And in deep communion with my Master, I went again into a reverie. I remembered, in a magical recollection, all the prayers that I had uttered.
I remembered all the cries for help; all the inquiries, the whys that I had made unto the Master.
I came to sense myself in a magical spot. In that magical spot gems were floating. I was inhaling that air flowing in that spot.
And with each breath of air that inhaled, I inhaled the gems. The gems became part of my very being.
And when the gems became part of my being, I was able to see, as if by magic, how all those prayers that I had uttered had been answered.
All the cries for help had been taken care off. And at that moment, that very moment, even my inquiries and my whys were being reconciled.
It was at that moment that God stepped in the direct actuality of my living experience. But, it took many months for me to really understand what had actually happened at that moment.
For it was not until a year later that God chose to show me in His Word the magnificence and splendor of the Giver of the gems.
The Gem of all Gems that gave me the sense of being in a magical spot. The Gem that lit up my whole being and transformed me in that instant of time:
YAHUSHUA MESSIAH HIMSELF stepped into my life at that very moment!
It took me almost a whole year to cease from my wandering and my works of pride and rebellion, throw myself on the ground and truly say: “I give up. You alone are God and You alone I trust, Oh God Almighty, HOW GREAT THOU ART my Master and my God!” Why?