Yes, I was rough with my friend. No apologies. So was Yahushua when He rebuked His friend and faithful follower with the words, “Get behind Me, Satan! You are in My way, an offense and a hindrance and a snare to Me; for you are minding what partakes not of the nature and quality of the Creator, but of men.”
No, I am not Yahushua, but! I am One with Him. I see and sense what He sees and what He senses. That’s the way is supposed to be for each one of us, but! It is not. Just because we assume to be in Him does not mean that we are.
We must learn to wait for Him to separate us. We must accept the fact of pain and suffering before we learn obedience from Him.
And for sure, those of us separated by Him, called into His service, do connect. We return from our self-righteous doings and are able to discern between the righteous and the wicked, between him who serves the Creator and him who does not serve Him.
These are all the matters that our Father/Creator is establishing within me day by day, moment by moment. So, there is no need for me to struggle to change myself, but! There is much need for me to struggle to come into His rest on the daily basis. Daily, I must die by the power of wisdom & love from on high. For unless my death is done by His Spirit in that love & wisdom? It is useless, only a temporal boost to glorify the carnal self.
Twelve years out my thirty-two years in His service I spent doing what I thought to be the thing to do as per the written words, aka, taking care of the shut-ins and the widows and the orphans. Good deeds. It earned me the label of a ‘good Christian woman’. What was wrong with that? Self-Righteousness. That was what was wrong! I earned my label. I was proud of myself, but! My Father?