Thursday, August 24, 2017 at 8:03 pm.
I do feel alone right now. Have no words to describe this sense of aloneness. I know You are right here with me. You never leave nor forsake me. Soon this moment will be over. Your Light will shine again in my troubled soul. You know all about it.
Friday, August 25, 2017 at 3:47 am.
I do feel alone right now. Why not? I know that You are with me, O my Father, I know it for sure, but! In this world? I have not yet found a place to lay my head. Corruption is the reality of this world. One way or the other, the human mind is corrupted as well. Just when I sense connection with someone. Just when I think I found the place I ought to be? Reality sets in.
There is no one. There is no place. In one hand, we claim worthiness and goodness. In the other hand, either we set ourselves to write and read filthy sex stories or whatever appeals to our carnal senses, cooking shows, the news, wholesome movies and on and on we go. There is no exception. No one is good. No one is righteous. We have ALL gone astray from the Creator we so brag about. We call evil good and good evil. We simply cannot let go of our carnal ways.
You alone are my SomeOne. You alone are my Secret Place, but! I am in this world. You have a purpose for my life. And though the reality of this world throws my emotions temporarily out of kilt, Your purpose for my life remains firm & steady.
What is it that throws my emotions out of kilt? The things I read from the most coveted sources of human beings. Even from sources I respect. I see a wholesome headline. I click only to find a not so wholesome content, or, worse yet, a deceitful one. What am I to do? Condole and compromise for the sake of my own search for a kindred spirit? No way! Help my Father, help! Help me to overcome this hurdle.
“My child, My precious thiaBasilia, you are a child of My heart. I know what you are feeling because I feel the same way. Yes, I have feelings. Yes, I feel and suffer all that you feel and suffer. So many of My own children still, do not recognize nor adhere to My commandments. Why? Because they have been programmed to believe those commandments are to deprive them of all things that mean pleasure to them.