O my Father, I am fed up with the whole setup, but! that does not dampen my contentment and eternal peace within my being by the power of Your love and wisdom from on high. I can always come and dump it all on You! You always respond to me in the most delightful unexpected ways. What am I talking about?
I am talking about what You just did to lift me up from the suffocating valley of my awakening moment just about an hour ago. Your words in Habakkuk came to mind. It came to me to search for the words, ‘no fruit’. I found them! WOW! Talking about lifting me up to Your mountain top? In reading my finding? The tears of joy begin to well up. You are an awesome Father to me. Quote:
No longer set on my ways… Isn’t that awesome?
Sunday, September 25, 2016 at 9:36 am.
O my Father—O Father of mine? I keep looking in my emails hoping to find Your answer there. Nothing. I keep waiting for Ahmad to come loaded with all the goods that I am at the present lacking, to no avail.
How futile it is to guess You and Your answers. Perhaps that is the difference between expect and speculate. Am I expecting for You to manifest Your answer to me? 0r, perhaps I am speculating for You to give me whatever for the pleasure of my flesh, what is it, O my Father—O Father of mine?
O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? Again You delight My heart with your child like questions.
- You are no longer going by your wisdom.
- You are no longer settling by your own deductions of what is and what is not.
- You are no longer living by your own ideas of how you, people & things are to be.
- You are now depending on Your Father like Your Father has created you to be. For I created you to nurture you in My likeness. I created you to remain My loving child without a care in the world for eternity.
- No, O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, you are not any longer speculating on a risky venture of yours.
- No! I see the expectancy in your heart, in your mind as the farmer expects his planting to produce with certainty.
- You are no longer speculating on lottery tickets or get rich skims.
- You are now expecting the sure thing to arrive like a child expects from a loving father.
Thanks, O my Father—O Father of mine! That’s exactly the way I feel & think. And I weep at the thought that it not so. O but You know it, O my Father—O Father of mine? You know it. You will not fail me no matter what evil doubts come to assault me from now on. No matter what I see, what I hear or what I think or feel, the fact is, You will never fail me!