Monday, September 25, 2017 at 4:55 am.
O the strength of the blows from Satan, but! The greater power of Your Love and Wisdom from On High? A power no foe can withstand. I live in Your Secret Place sheltered by such Mighty Power. I have nothing to fear.
Even so, yesterday, while I began to post the post I recorded, a sight of certain things I am not at liberty to share. caused me to go into a gigantic down spin! I stopped it all! I did not post.
Suddenly! The spin hit me like a powerful tsunami wave! My reaction? A human reaction of anger against You for allowing Satan to hit me so, but! You knew it all before it happened. Your wisdom is unfathomable. The result?
Tenfold the strength of Your Love and Wisdom from On High descended upon me! Yes, the religious spectrum engulfing the globe flashed in my screen. The blow hit at the sight of such spectrum. You hate religion but man adores it! The sight? It triggered the blow.
I saw. I lied on my bed wanting in vain for sleep to make the sight go away. Instead? Hot tears of anger began profusely to flow! I wept! I sat up. I wept some more. Could not make my body move to stand up. I uttered many words of reproach. I purposed again to quit it all! I got up. I walked to this chair and sat up. In front of this screen I sat. Anger. Reproach my soul encroached. I reached for the phone. I dialed Ahmad’s number again! NO ANSWER! Anger escalated.
I sat still. I got up. I walked to the kitchen. I reached for the jar containing the last few grains of coffee. I put water in the mini coffee pot. I placed it on the burner. Few seconds go by. I stir the coffee grains into the hot water. I succeeded to make the cup of needed coffee drink. Anger begins to subside.
Some time lapsed. Ahmad at my door. A demand to explain myself! The array of man in bishop’s garb flashes in my mind! Angry retort! IT’S YOUR FAULT! Ahmad winces. Tears return their flow. Anger flashes back and forth! The chill of the wind blowing on us sitting out in the roof still the angry waves in our souls. “Let’s go inside, it’s getting cold out here.”
