It came to me a while back:
There are two powerful motivations or impulses within all human beings. One is the Set-Apart Spirit in the nature of our Creator. The other? The human spirit in the human nature. Two powerful forces opposed to each other. Thus, the paradigm of human kind.
Phew! That explains all my perplexities with the ‘righteous’ amid my world. Among them I lived most of my righteous life. O mine! Am I now saying my life is un-righteous? Well, yes, accordingly to my former understanding of the matter.
And there comes part of what I shared with Pat today. “The flesh profits nothing. A kick & a half!” I said, “Pat there goes all my attempts to be ‘good’!” And Pat burst laughing! It’s the truth, there is no use trying to be good. It cannot be done. Yeah, most people are what the world calls ‘good’ but! Some of us have a hard time putting up with most ‘good’ people.
Thus, some of us are labeled ‘rebels’, ‘trouble makers’, ‘undesirables’, ‘unfit’, ‘insane’ all the way to ‘criminals’ in need of mental health! Stigmatized! Isolated! Rejected! Abandoned! Isn’t that something?
But look, it’s lots of fun to be ‘no good!’ That is ‘no good’ accordingly to the world’s concept of goodness and society’s etiquette’s rules and regulations.
Ah! You too loud!
You too blunt!
You have no manners!
You must say it this or that way.
You must dress this or that way.
You must never be angry.
A soft answer.
Love is kind and etc.
Don’t! Don’t! Don’t! Do! Do! Do! Goodness sake! No wonder my battle not only for the last nine years but also for my whole life! And Father, why You didn’t reveal this mater to me until now?
“Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? Once you pause to reflect, I can empower you to see all things the way I see it all. Why not before? Because your mind was not receptive before. Remember,