This morning? I am coming to You, not to anyone else. I am not seeking for sympathy or advice from any human source. For there is not any human sympathy or advice to avail anyone to resolve our troublesome affairs. Regardless rank or fame, no human being qualifies to bear our burdens. I am casting this heavy burden upon You. You alone are able and willing to bear our burdens. You alone are able to harmonize all inharmonious circumstances in our lives on the daily and moment to moment basis.
Yesterday, not even Ahmad bothered to call or check on me. Nothing new. It happens continuously. Same goes for my own children. Except for Denise, I do not hear from the rest of my children for months sometimes. And friends? Only Pat keeps up with me.
Perhaps I am sensing any of my children’s fears and hardships? Whatever it is, I cast this burden upon You. For sure, it is worth to repeat, You alone are able and willing to bear our burdens. You alone are able to harmonize all inharmonious circumstances in our lives on the daily and moment to moment basis.
I am cold and uncomfortable for no reason that I can detect. The weather is not the issue yet. I feel a knot in my stomach. Perhaps my eats in the last few hours got something to do with the way I am feeling, but! I done ran out of ideas of what to eat for my health? Perhaps my attitude towards my inability to go shopping for myself to get the things I think I need to eat for my health is affecting my well-being?
Perhaps the whole spectrum of things as they are around me and around the whole world is getting to me? Perhaps, when we come to save our skin we have denied Your existence just like Peter did before the rooster crow? Perhaps Your children are going through the agonizing moment to realize they have denied You in their dire predicaments of life? Perhaps I am feeling their agony?