Set A Guard On My Lips. Take Control Of My Thoughts And Feelings.
O my Father? You always know the thoughts running through my mind. You always know how I feel about all that goes on near and far from me.
You always know how prone I am to express my thoughts and feelings, but! Every time I do so? I get loss and confused. Not knowing whether my behavior is pleasant in Your sight.
What is it that I am so disgusted about? I can hardly bear to think of acting nice and understanding. How can I, my Father, how can I condole the present human spectrum?
How can I smile and go along with the new ‘free’ generation? They are free indeed—free from Your loving control and good will for us.
Could I be in the wrong? Could I be judging and condemning when I have no business in doing so? What is wrong, my Father?
The truth of the matter? Who cares? Who gives a dam about anything I feel, think, do, say? Ah! “You never change! I see you later when you are in a better mood.” That’s from the ones closest to me. The rest?
It’s “Good bye!” at its best. Who cares? Be free! Unconditional love! You want to defy all decency? You want to practice immorality?
Go ahead! Enjoy! I’m glad about you. You free to live your life any way it makes you happy. And so am I! Let’s celebrate! Eat. Drink. Be marry! We are free to be whatever we want to be.
It feels like a slap in the face of decency, but! In the other hand? There are the religious zealots using decency as a weapon.
And the killing goes on. Whether physically or immaterial? With a kiss or with the fist? The killing goes on! Who cares? Who is listening?
Be free! Unconditional love! You want to defy all decency? You want to practice immorality? Go ahead! Enjoy! I’m glad about you. You free to live your life any way it makes you happy. And so am I! Let’s celebrate! Eat. Drink. Be marry! We are free to be whatever we want to be.
Me? What’s Wrong With Me, O My Father, What’s Wrong With Me?
It’s now 3:57 pm. The day is almost gone, and? Nothing has changed. Promises are not kept. Excuses for whatever anyone choses to do or live by.