Monday, December 18, 2017 at 10:22 pm.
O my Father! So much to be thankful for on this day. You are so good! You, alone, are GOOD! So it’s written,
Matthew 19:17 AMPC+
(17) And He said to him, Why do you ask Me about the perfectly and essentially good? There is only One Who is good [perfectly and essentially]—the Almighty. If you would enter into the Life, you must continually keep the commandments.
Hum! So much for the rat race of goodness. I ain’t ‘good’ neither are you! The Almighty Creator of our beings is the only GOOD ONE! That’s the fact let’s leave it at that!
Father? Where am I at? Like a maid wait for her mistress so I wait for You to indicate to me how and where next to go with the writing task You have assigned unto me.
Perhaps is best for me next to rest? 10:43 pm? I’ll do. I’m heading for bed. Hope for Your rest. That’s the best.
Good Reasons To Cave In, But! I Won’t.
Tuesday, December 19, 2017 at 8:15 am.
O my Father! You well said, in the world I was to have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]
But, O my Father, You know how much the tribulation and trials and distress and frustration is affecting both Ahmad and I more than anyone else, or, so it feels.
It’s impossible to be of good cheer, to take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted. How can I be so at the sight of my Ahmad under the horrible stress he is under?
Have been doing OK with it all but! When the heater ran out of gas. I lost it! Unworthy suspicions about Your faithfulness returned. I ranted and raved in panic because I lost track whether the gas was on or off. I feared to cause a fire.
In fear I called Ahmad. He came. At his sight? I wept! He connected the other gas container in the heater. He turned on the heater. Gave me some instructions. He left.
Me? After my weeping ceased, Your wisdom took over. I turned off the heater. There is not much gas in that tank. It came to me to only turn it on when extremely cold.