Ahmad called. I tried to share my heart with him about the waiting on You to take care of us, but! Ahmad’s ears are still shut! He cannot hear me. On Your time? You will open those ears.
Commitment To Obey The Father/Creator Of My Being….
In the meantime? It came to me to write a letter to my friend who oversees my Bank Account.
O my Father! That letter is a letter of my commitment to obey You at any cost to my carnal life. Quote,
Hello my friend,
I writing to tell you I am not going to get any extra money out because the month coming up I must pay for SiteGround. I need to save any extras for that purpose.
…..I have decided once again not to ask for help at all. If I don’t have whatever? I’ll do without.
From here on out I will stick by what Father commands me, that is to wait, to sit still, to write and publish. He will do the rest.
He has been telling me that for the longest. I have disobeyed and paid the consequences. No more. I have suffered and I’m still suffering on account of my disobedience.
Father has shown me these things only this month. The last straw? The day you told me you were having problems yourself and could not cover me. That got my attention!
Now, my power supply went out. The monitor went out. The Internet was cut because the computer kept using my download gigas. Much was paid to get the power supply and monitor against my will because I refuse to spend any money above my means.
I no longer care whatever anyone does. The problem is with me not with any of the people my Father has provided to help me. You all have been doing over and above to help me. It has taken this long, but! Finally! Father got through to me. He changed and empowered me to obey at any cost.
It no longer matters what anyone thinks or does about me. If I have no computer and no Internet, I will write by hand and wait until my Father provides whatever without me going all around begging for help.
If I have no food, no heat or any of the things that I have considered to be so important? I will not tell you or anyone. If no one comes to visit or calls or email me? I will do the same in return.