Father has shown me these things only this month. The last straw? The day you told me you were having problems yourself and could not cover me. That got my attention!
Now, my power supply went out. The monitor went out. The Internet was cut because the computer kept using my download gigas. Much was paid to get the power supply and monitor against my will because I refuse to spend any money above my means.
I no longer care whatever anyone does. The problem is with me not with any of the people my Father has provided to help me. You all have been doing over and above to help me. It has taken this long, but! Finally! Father got through to me. He changed and empowered me to obey at any cost.
It no longer matters what anyone thinks or does about me. If I have no computer and no Internet, I will write by hand and wait until my Father provides whatever without me going all around begging for help.
If I have no food, no heat or any of the things that I have considered to be so important? I will not tell you or anyone. If no one comes to visit or calls or email me? I will do the same in return.
I am thankful for what I have, but! If Father takes this apartment? I will wait. I will sit still even if I must sit still in the street. That’s the kind of power Father has drenched on me through the last weeks of trouble and painful body.
It all amounts to the knowledge that even if I nearly die? Father never fails or forsakes me. He is working all things for our good, not just for my good. He has restored me to the original intent for my creation, to be loved by Him and to love Him above all things in return. Love in His language means OBEDIENCE.