Furthermore, You also compel me to write down what I see in a large tablet, what is larger than the Internet? But! You do not compel me to do anything about it all.

Instead? You compel me to be still. To wait and see Your deliverance. Therefore? My plea to search me.

Only You have the power to search and deliver me from the wicked nature ingrained within me from birth until death do us part. Psalms 139:17-24 comes to mind.

How precious and weighty also are Your thoughts to me, O my Father! How vast is the sum of them! If I could count them, they would be more in number than the sand. When I awoke, could I count to the end I would still be with You.

If You would only slay the wicked within me, O my Father, and the men of blood depart from me—who speak against You wickedly, Your enemies who take Your name or all Your name stands for in vain!

Do I not hate them, O my Master, who hate You? And am I not grieved and do I not loathe those who rise up against You?

I hate them with perfect hatred; they have become my enemies. Search me thoroughly, O my Father, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts!

And see if there is any wicked or hurtful way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

Thanks, my Father. I know You answer me while I yet speak. Betrayed or not? The new posting setup is done. Should that be not Your will?

You will develop the circumstances to accomplish Your will in all this distressful moment I have gone through.

I refuse to fret about the outcome of the new posting setup. You are in control of it all. No problem. No worries or fears of any kind. I wait on You.

A New Day. A New Month. A New Attitude ….?

Tuesday, May 1, 2018 at 3:11 am.