My chemical life following my own gods begins.
The pills along the many, many beautiful and kind and well-meaning hearts who did their best to comfort me.
All along? After 12 years of such wonderful care? On May of 2007 I dropped to the floor. My neighbor found me. Rushed me to the emergency. The visiting doctor informs me I had come there at the point of death for lack of sodium.
The Shock Of My Life! All Those Years I Have Been Misdiagnosed!
No I do not blame the doctors nor think badly of them—no! All in their hearts was to help me, but! Why did they harm instead of helping me?
Because of ignorance in both ends, mine and theirs. I was ignorant of my spiritual gifts and called as well as they were so ignorant of such somewhat.
Thinking to impress them with my experiences ….?
I kept talking about my experiences with spiritual things thinking to impress them with such, but? lol What I thought to be my testimony only earned me the label of Manic Depressive-Bipolar-Schizophrenic.
I found that out in 1987 when they declared me DISABLE and granted me $5000.00 payback since the moment I applied for benefits as per advise of the social workers connected with my case. O well. That’s only the tip of the iceberg. 🙂
But Why Am I Relating This Story Again …?
But why I relating this story in this comment that will probably go in the trash bin? Because that is my call.
To tell my story by all means available as a witness of the Presence of the Almighty Father/Creator of our beings always working in my heart.
I am not mentally ill at all.
I am gifted with spiritual gifts that only lately are coming to light.
Regardless! Despite of our ignorance of the ways of the Almighty Creator of our beings?
He, the Almighty Creator is raising the unknowns like myself to proclaim our restoration by His power of love and wisdom from on high.
His Plan Of Restoration ….?
His Plan Of Restoration To The Original Intent For Our Creation Is In Effect —To Love And To Be Loved. HIS cherish Family perfect forever to be.
The Scriptural Order From On High ….?
First we are confronted, convicted, repented, restored. Then we are commanded to tell it by all means available. Write. Publish. Optimize. Then? The command:
Sit Still. I Will Now Do The Rest. The Value Of Silence ….?
Father? As per Your leading? Been doing lots of reading. In reading? What have You revealed to me to confirm Your Presence within my being all these years?
• The results to ignore the Scriptural Order From on high.
• The Value Of Silence.
• The results of the lack of silence.
By my own experience and observation of the experience of others?
Yes! We Have Been Bamboozled!
My beloved Brethren,
This is a critical moment in the skim of our eternal life.
• Let us quit wondering who is who and let us quit trying to figure out anything whatsoever.
• Let us truly abandon ourselves to Yahushua by the unknown power of the Set-Apart Spirit He sent to us.
• Let us desist of the idea that we know Him and therefore no one can tell us anything different of the idea we have of knowing Him.
• Let us realize that we have been bamboozled by Satan and our carnal selves.
Correction applies to ALL ….?
Make no mistake about it, ALL the strong words of correction and doom in the sacred Scriptures apply to each one of us literally and indiscriminately, no one, no one, is righteous!
Even when we claim and produce the evidence of our salvation? We are saved yes, but we remain CARNAL!.
One More Explosive Revelation ….?
Wow! Even the greatest of the greatest most selected, faithful, strong committed workers of ancient and present times?
Failed to turn the world around. No exception. We have failed so far. Why? That’s the explosive revelation at this instant of my time in Your Presence, my Father.
So? that’s why You have led me to read, read, read for the last few days. Now I understand some obscure words from the lips of Yahushua Himself,
Truly I tell you, among those born of women there has not risen anyone greater than John the Baptist; yet he who is least in the kingdom of heaven is greater than he.
Why would the least be greater than John the Baptist?
Because of John the Baptist ignorance of the Scriptural Order for our existence on these earthly grounds.
The same is happening nowadays.
No matter the soundness and validity of our spiritual experiences? We come to a point where we set up to minister, and? We stagnate. WHAT?
Indeed! It could be a shock to me as well, but! I am not any longer shocked at Your doings, O my Master because? You are at work removing all shocks from my soul.
You are now revealing to me Your covenant and its deep, inner meaning.
All the obscure written words? You are now bringing into the Light of Your Presence in my heart.
Yes. That’s the past and present condition and state of the chosen people and selected vessels from on high, but!
That’s also Your design and purpose for our existence on these earthly grounds You have recreated for us.
It’s all written down, but!
We read. We understand what we read. Even so? We only understand it all from the natural physical meaning of words.
For spiritual understanding?
Very limited given to some, not to the multitude. Limited? Yes! You only give us a limited amount of spiritual insight for our safety.
Should You give us more as we beg of You to do for us? Phew! We’ll attempt to blow You off Your throne for good!
Dethroned from the heart of the multitude!
As it is? The knowledge acquired from the forbidden tree; the wave of positive thinking originated by Norman Vincent Peale?
It has done exactly that—it has dethroned You from the heart of the multitude. Yet! You are, still, sitting on Your throne waiting. Behold Your unfathomable wisdom!
Regardless! No one can dethrone You from Your throne up above and in the heart of Your faithful ones.
Ha! Now the Scriptural Order of Your written words is coming to light in my mind. Wow! Your covenant and its deep, inner meaning comes into play.
(Sleep again. 7:02 am.)
It’s now 11:37 am. O my Father! Indeed! You have not hold any secrets from us. If only we’ll get off our high horses we will come to enjoy the knowledge You so freely offer to us all, but!
No Need For Our Lamentations And Regrets. The Time Is Now.
Now? Yes, now You are urging us to come more than ever before. Now is the time for each one of us individually. The Father/Creator is no longer addressing the multitude.
Not The Multitude Anymore. The Individual Child Of The Most High ….?
Dear Reader, perhaps you are familiar with the Scriptures or Bible like I was for most of my life, but! Perhaps like myself? You have taken the ancient written words for granted.
In the other hand? Perhaps You are not familiar with those words. Regardless, those ancient words are coming to pass verbatim!
That’s what I am now coming to terms with. I am in the world where all these words were originally written, and?
In astonishment I am watching it all happening!
The accuracy of those words is astounding! But why have we failed our Creator and are faithful to the gods we have willfully created?
Ignorance Of Our Identity With The Chosen Israel ….?
The reason is obvious to me now, but then, while I lived in the USA? I did not have a clue as to my identity with Israel.
To the USA citizen as a whole? The Judeo-Christian doctrine is basic, but! That has become nowadays nothing more than a cliché.
In the Christian circles? One holds tenaciously to the beautiful but for the most un-scriptural doctrines and beliefs, and, the truth about our identity with Israel?
For the most, such truth is rejected.
Nonetheless? It is not the will of the Father/Creator that any should perish. He so loves the world, He sent His only begotten Son to save it.
Why Save The World?
Ha! Have you ever thought about it, dear Christian? Why save the world not just us Christians or Muslims or Jews? O mine! Now it is obvious to me, and I hope it becomes obvious to you.
Israel Failed The Father/Creator, But! The Father/Creator NEVER Failed Israel ….?
The whole world is now inhabited by His chosen Israel. Israel failed the Father/Creator, but! The Father/Creator NEVER failed Israel.
On the contrary. Israel’s failure resulted in Israel’s multiplying and replenishing the earth, just like it was to be. “Be fruitful, multiply, and fill the earth, ….”
It is now done! The earth is now full with the descendants from Israel.
Only Israel’s descendants now roam the earth as gentiles—lost without an identity.
Of course, there are a few in comparison who kept their identity, but! Even them, are still stuck in their willful ways. That’s all coming to an end.
Behold! The Almighty Father/Creator’s power of love and wisdom now displayed in testimonies liken this testimony you are now reading. It’s written,
Go and proclaim these words toward the north [where the ten tribes have been taken as captives] and say, Return, faithless Israel, says the Master, and I will not cause My countenance to fall and look in anger upon you, for I am merciful, says the Master; I will not keep My anger forever.
Only know, understand, and acknowledge your iniquity and guilt–that you have rebelled and transgressed against the Master your Almighty Creator and have scattered your favors among strangers under every green tree, and you have not obeyed My voice, says the Master.
Return, O faithless children of the whole twelve tribes, says the Master, for You’re your Creator and Master and Husband to you, and I will take you, not as a nation, but individually—one from a city and two from a tribal family—and I will bring you to Zion.
And I will give you spiritual shepherds after My own heart in the final time, who will feed you with knowledge and understanding and judgment.
And it shall be that when you have multiplied and increased in the land in those days, says the Master, they shall no more say, The ark of the covenant of the Master. It shall not come to mind, nor shall they seriously remember it, nor shall they miss or visit it, nor shall it be repaired or made again for instead of the ark, which represented the Almighty Creator’s presence, He will show Himself to be present throughout the city.
At that time they shall call Jerusalem The Throne of the Master, and all the nations shall be gathered to it, in the renown and name of the Master, to Jerusalem; nor shall they walk any more after the stubbornness of their own evil hearts.
In those days the house of Judah shall walk with the house of Israel, and together they shall come out of the land of the north to the land that I gave as an inheritance to your fathers.
And I thought how gloriously and honorably I would set you among My children and give you a pleasant land, a goodly heritage, the most beautiful and best inheritance among all nations! And I thought you would call Me My Father and would not turn away from following Me ….? End of quote.
End of quote, but! May I suggest to you, dear Reader to continue reading those ancient written words even if you are already familiar with them. That you may enjoy a new perspective as you re-read them.
Struggle with my flesh ….?
It’s still Thursday, May 3, 2018 at 6:42 pm. O my Father? Help me to get rid of this discouragement feeling. There is no visible response. It’s discouraging!
In vain I wish to be patient and forbearing. That human nature ingrained in me is not capable of such. Help me to set my focus back on You.
This day has been a day of waiting for my supplies that have not yet arrived. On top of that? I am not sure on how to connect the discrepancy between Your words and Paul’s words. I will try now to go to sleep. Hope for Your answer when I wake up.
Wow! O My Father! How Amazingly Real You Are!
It’s 11:55 pm. Midnight! I woke up a moment ago. Your answer to my dilemma? I hear quite clear:
“The discrepancy between My words and Paul’s words is in the result of such words.”
Wow! Such answer covers every single issue You have clarified for me while I journey in Your Presence in this valley of death that we humans travel.
You have shown me now how to proceed. You have flashed in my mind the entire Scriptures from Genesis to the last page in the Apocalypse. What did You show me?
The entire library or collection of books portray the parallel of two natures.
The nature of Abel. The nature of Cain. Your nature. Our nature. Your ways. Our ways.
The beginning. The end. The results of it all for the benefit of each individual child of Yours. You are no longer speaking to the multitude.
You are speaking to each one of us in the most personal way.
You are calling each one of us by our names, but! Our response? Wondering about that fellow over yonder. What about him/her?
O me! To the tee my experience be! What about him/her—the cause of my dilemmas. Even so? The answer remains the same in a way, but!
O my Father, Your everlasting patience with each one of us.
Despite our non-relevant responses to Your instructions to us personally?
Your love and faithfulness to us remain forever.
You have it all planned for our good. Better yet! Despite the godless evil wave of the New Age of positive thinking engulfing the entire earth?
Nothing can thwart Your plan to restore us to the original intent for our creation. To that effect You are speaking to us personally. Wow!
That’s Your answer. The key to get rid of all discouraging thoughts flashing in my mind to stop the message You are delivering in my writings.
Where was I while writing about this matter of discrepancy in Your written words? Ah! So?
The discrepancy is not in the written words but in the results.
The results or the way we respond to those words. Our response is well illustrated in the words of Paul. Unfortunately? We read those words but hardly grasp Paul’s heart in them.
It’s now Friday, May 4, 2018 at 1:24 am. I will take my rest for now. will continue as You lead me when I wake up.
Tears In My Eyes As I Am Recording The Happenings To Close This Post ….?
Wow! I woke up around 6 am this time. I slept on and off since 1:24 am. Had several significant dreams. In the last dream?
If I recall correctly, the number four came to surface as the key for this moment. When I woke up I noticed today is the 4th day of the 5th month. Amazing!
The Number Four – Creation and the World
All of the numbers used in scripture have some variety in their meaning. However, every number has a common theme that runs through each one. The number ‘four’ is no exception. This number is overwhelmingly seen in the material creation and the expression of God’s purpose in the world or on the earth.
The Number Five – Grace and Preparation
The number five is generally agreed to be one of a handful of numbers similar to the church at Philadelphia. No bad things to say about it. Every source I have concerning this number associates the idea of God’s grace and life to it. The 5th word of scripture is shamayim, or heaven. There are not many bad things to say about heaven, and there is probably a lot of grace and life there. The 5th day of restoration of the creation is the first appearance of life.
I have tears in my eyes as I am recording this matter. When I woke up? I was not led to continue in the journal at first, but! I was led to re-read the post:
Dear Reader, there is no need for me to go through a long explanation on my Father’s doings in this journey of mine in His Presence. That post says it all.
I am now sure, my Father is doing the rest in the heart of each reader of these lines that I write.
I am sure you and all readers shall take their time to read and grasp the heart of my Father in all that I write and publish. I leave you with that thought in mind as I close this post.
Meantime and until the next post? His love in my heart for you and for all stays there to stay for eternity, thiaBasilia. 🙂