True repentance means the power to obey Your commands, but! True repentance can only come by from the power of Your love and Your unfathomable wisdom to set the time for it to happen.
My time came a few days ago. I made the arrangements to set apart 10% of my total income, and? Under no circumstance let me touch that money. For that money is no longer mine. It belongs to You, my Father.
It’s done! By the power of Your love and wisdom to convict and empower me to truly repent. Now what, my Father? I have no way to access my account to withdraw any monies, but!
Power to keep the commandment no matter what? ….
Even if I could access my bank account? I have a choice to make, do I stick to keep Your commandment or, do I break it?
Yes! There are many reasons my human logic can find to break the commandment. For one reason? I need a monitor to resume the task You have assigned unto me.
For another reason? We are at our wits end without money to get the most basic supplies to live on most of the time. Emergencies? Clothing?
Of course! Such are valid reasons in my human logic and the logic on any human being, but! Not according to Your logic, O my Father!
By the human logic? No problem! Take that money to provide whatever is needed. The result? Poverty and lack. The thorny situation of lack of every needed repeats itself continuously.
No food? No clothing? No money for emergencies? Time to panic! Time to sound the begging alarm to reach the four corners or the earth. What kind of deity do we worship? One who cannot provide for the worshipers?
Wow! What a description of my not too far past gone by Your grace and power to repent. Surprise! Not this time. No way to abide in my or the logic of any other human being. Instead?