Journal—An Ongoing Dialog Between thiaBasilia And Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …
Wednesday, June 13, 2018 at 11:22 am.
I had my days wrong ….?
Wow! My Father? This is the eve of my 79th birthday. I thought I had to wait until Friday, but? You must to pushed it one day ahead.
You know that I can’t hardly wait to see what You got in store for me on this so especial birthday of mine! Wow! Now what, my Father?
It’s Wednesday, June 13, 2018 now at 10:35 pm. O my Father? You know I need to go to sleep but I am not sleepy at all. I wait on You. Will go to bed anyhow.
It’s my Birthday at last! ….?
Thursday, June 14, 2018 at 1:08 am.
It’s my Birthday, Father! Have You forgotten it? I wonder. Not a single email yet, and money? Nothing. Zilch! I just as well go back to sleep and sleep until my long awaited 79th birthday pass and be no more.
Regardless! I’m so blessed ….?
It’s now 3:52 am. Thanks my Father for Your Presence within me. Thanks for Your Presence in every little detail of my life. Thanks for the healing of my soul.
I beseech You to give me the incentive to not only return to my task but to do it with the certainty of Your hand of mercy upon me.
No need for concern of any kind ….?
No need to concern myself with the noise going on in this insanity ridden world. My only concern is You and the vital need to keep my gaze upon You.
I’m grateful, for You have given me this place of quiet and safety despite of the disgusting noise and rubbish surrounding me. Even so?
Secured in Your Presence ….?
I sit four floors above it all safe from any intruders in my privacy.
Fears-Misgivings from the past? Gone! ….?
I pause and reflect. Any fears and misgivings I might had before? They are no more.
The same goes for any of my longings to go shopping and pick and choose whatever my heart desires. As of last night, those longings? Gone! How?
How has it all come to pass ….?
Last night I made one last plan to go shopping for a printer. I talked to Joyce for her approval. Then? I attempted to talk to Ahmad. Ha! My plan and hope to satisfy my shopping longings? Annihilated!
Big disagreement! It made me realize the futility of going shopping under anyone in control of transportation or any information relevant to my shopping.
Realizing my guilt. Recognizing Father’s provision ….?
No way! I’ll do without before I submit to such pressure. In due time? I know my Father, You shall get me whatever I need without putting pressure on myself or on Ahmad to get or to do as I please to do.
Wow! What a realization on this 79th birthday of mine.
Ha! So, my Father? That’s what You giving to me instead of the monies I keep waiting for! Hahaha!
You always know what’s best for me.
You know I not only need a printer but also a whole bunch of other needs I been doing without. You know I need a bunch of monies greater than what I have now.
Waiting with a glad heart ….?
I can gladly wait on You to supply for me with a glad heart! You are so clever to deliver me from my own frustrations.
What a PRECIOUS and LOVELY and GOOD Father You are! Until this moment? I couldn’t figure out how to handle such disagreements with Ahmad.
Wisdom to handle retaliation feelings ….?
The insidious feeling of retaliation by limitation was there all the time. Limitation? Yeah, limiting myself in this insanity ridden world. How to limit myself? What do I mean?
Well, let me see. How do I limit myself. By sulking—a state or mood of feeling resentful or sullen: Man O Man! The meaning of sullen answers my limitation question.
- Showing a brooding ill humor or silent resentment; morose or sulky.
- Gloomy or somber in tone, color, or portent: sullen, gray skies.
- Sluggish; slow: the sullen current of a canal.
Lack of wisdom? The core of my ill health ….?
That’s what I been doing all this time! Sulking! It’s been costing me my health and my wealth in the relationship with Ahmad and family.
Never in a million years could I have been able to get rid of this awful state of sulking. I sensed such feeling, but! No matter how hard I tried to justify myself?
It has been going from bad to worse between Ahmad and myself, but now? Such awful state is gone for good! I know it is so because this time? You, my Father, have exposed and disposed of it. Now? Wow!
Gladly singing now ….?
Once again, I can sing with a glad heart, “I feel good. Just to know I been redeemed makes me feel good!” Even so? The best part is that the way I feel is not just an ordinary feeling.
Now I see the Father’s Deliverance ….?
Indeed! Not at all an ordinary feeling! This is Your Deliverance—Yahushua’s Presence within my being. He walks with me. He talks to me. He tells me I’m His own. I can now go on!
What a marvelous start for my 79th Birthday!
I must post this today! Hey just now? I see that beautifully notification up on my screen: You’ve got money! Got to go check it out! Wow!
Meantime and until the next post? His love in my heart for you dear Reader and for all? Stays there in my heart to stay for eternity, your sister, not thiaBasilia anymore. Why? Because I am not the Author of the underlaying message in the posts.