Big disagreement! It made me realize the futility of going shopping under anyone in control of transportation or any information relevant to my shopping.
Realizing my guilt. Recognizing Father’s provision ….?
No way! I’ll do without before I submit to such pressure. In due time? I know my Father, You shall get me whatever I need without putting pressure on myself or on Ahmad to get or to do as I please to do.
Wow! What a realization on this 79th birthday of mine.
Ha! So, my Father? That’s what You giving to me instead of the monies I keep waiting for! Hahaha!
You always know what’s best for me.
You know I not only need a printer but also a whole bunch of other needs I been doing without. You know I need a bunch of monies greater than what I have now.
Waiting with a glad heart ….?
I can gladly wait on You to supply for me with a glad heart! You are so clever to deliver me from my own frustrations.
What a PRECIOUS and LOVELY and GOOD Father You are! Until this moment? I couldn’t figure out how to handle such disagreements with Ahmad.
Wisdom to handle retaliation feelings ….?
The insidious feeling of retaliation by limitation was there all the time. Limitation? Yeah, limiting myself in this insanity ridden world. How to limit myself? What do I mean?
Well, let me see. How do I limit myself. By sulking—a state or mood of feeling resentful or sullen: Man O Man! The meaning of sullen answers my limitation question.
- Showing a brooding ill humor or silent resentment; morose or sulky.
- Gloomy or somber in tone, color, or portent: sullen, gray skies.
- Sluggish; slow: the sullen current of a canal.
Lack of wisdom? The core of my ill health ….?
That’s what I been doing all this time! Sulking! It’s been costing me my health and my wealth in the relationship with Ahmad and family.
Never in a million years could I have been able to get rid of this awful state of sulking. I sensed such feeling, but! No matter how hard I tried to justify myself?
It has been going from bad to worse between Ahmad and myself, but now? Such awful state is gone for good! I know it is so because this time? You, my Father, have exposed and disposed of it. Now? Wow!
Gladly singing now ….?
Once again, I can sing with a glad heart, “I feel good. Just to know I been redeemed makes me feel good!” Even so? The best part is that the way I feel is not just an ordinary feeling.
Now I see the Father’s Deliverance ….?
Indeed! Not at all an ordinary feeling! This is Your Deliverance—Yahushua’s Presence within my being. He walks with me. He talks to me. He tells me I’m His own. I can now go on!
What a marvelous start for my 79th Birthday!
I must post this today! Hey just now? I see that beautifully notification up on my screen: You’ve got money! Got to go check it out! Wow!