The same goes for any of my longings to go shopping and pick and choose whatever my heart desires. As of last night, those longings? Gone! How?
How has it all come to pass ….?
Last night I made one last plan to go shopping for a printer. I talked to Joyce for her approval. Then? I attempted to talk to Ahmad. Ha! My plan and hope to satisfy my shopping longings? Annihilated!
Big disagreement! It made me realize the futility of going shopping under anyone in control of transportation or any information relevant to my shopping.
Realizing my guilt. Recognizing Father’s provision ….?
No way! I’ll do without before I submit to such pressure. In due time? I know my Father, You shall get me whatever I need without putting pressure on myself or on Ahmad to get or to do as I please to do.
Wow! What a realization on this 79th birthday of mine.
Ha! So, my Father? That’s what You giving to me instead of the monies I keep waiting for! Hahaha!
You always know what’s best for me.
You know I not only need a printer but also a whole bunch of other needs I been doing without. You know I need a bunch of monies greater than what I have now.
Waiting with a glad heart ….?
I can gladly wait on You to supply for me with a glad heart! You are so clever to deliver me from my own frustrations.
What a PRECIOUS and LOVELY and GOOD Father You are! Until this moment? I couldn’t figure out how to handle such disagreements with Ahmad.
Wisdom to handle retaliation feelings ….?
The insidious feeling of retaliation by limitation was there all the time. Limitation? Yeah, limiting myself in this insanity ridden world. How to limit myself? What do I mean?