Journal—An Ongoing Dialog Between thiaBasilia And Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …
Friday, July 27, 2018 at 2:00 pm.
I Feel Anger And Disgust, But Then? Read On ….?
Father? You know I been working on this post since last Wednesday, but! I just can bring myself to post it. Why? I pause. I reflect.
All things I see. All things I hear. All things I read. The responses. The reactions to me and to all? Just zap so much out of me! I feel anger and disgust, but then?
I reflect on my own doings. Hum! That causes me even more anger and disgust! Why? Simple. I am human no different than other humans, yet?
One Moment I Am Certain, Next Moment? Who Knows?
O my Father! What’s going on with me? Why one moment I am certain, next moment? Who knows? Ah! You do! Yes! My Father, You do know every minute detail of my being and my doings.
All the things that I wonder about myself? You know it. You know of the things that deeply trouble me. You know of my deepest longings.
Better yet! You are now showing Your covenant and revealing to me its deep, inner meaning. Yeah, You know. You know the wicked human that I am.
No matter. That wicked human is no longer my master. That wicked human must remain with me, but! I can freely laugh and mock its attempts to take control of me.
It’ll never happen! I have now the power to reject those attempts with the same power in Yahushua’s words to Peter’s wicked human being within Peter in Matthew 16:21-23.
Phew! What A Relief! Sometimes? I Feel Like I Will Never Laugh Again, But!
My Father speaks! Words from my Father. Quote:
“Get behind Me, Satan!” Is the magic word to reject all your thoughts and feelings of doubt and fear causing me so much pain and suffering!
Rejoice, My child! Rejoice! I delight in your obedience despite the wicked within you. My delight in your obedience is your strength.”
Phew! What a relief! Sometimes? I feel like I will never laugh again, but! Thanks, my Father! You are always on time to deliver me from such miserable feelings, and?
Add then to my list of humorous cartoons I have in mind to create to laugh and mock that wicked human within me. It’s now Friday, July 27, 2018 at 3:33 pm. Time to get busy with this post.
Am I Lusting For Riches And Fame? Nay! Just To Think Of Riches And Fame Makes Me Cringe….?
Wednesday, July 25, 2018 at 6:04 pm.
Ah! How easily my dream could be taken for a lust for riches and fame, but! Far from such lust. Way far! I watch the videos of the rich and famous, and?
I cringe to think I could become one of them like I once I aspired to become. What makes me now to cringe at my past aspirations?
Ha! Under all that wealth and fame? Nothing! Not even the words in the Bible or the most famous quotes or the adherence to the greatest of philosophies can fill that emptiness under the wealth and fame of the rich and famous.
So? What’s With My Dream Life In A Penthouse Garden….?
O my Father! You know. That dream is only my new born desire to return to that garden You planted for us the moment of our creation.
Ah! How easily my dream could be taken for a lust for riches and fame, but! Far from such lust. Way far! Again, that dream is only my new born desire to return to that garden You planted for us the moment of our creation.
Gen 2:8 And the Almighty Creator planted a garden toward the east, in Eden or delight; and there He put the man whom He had formed or framed, constituted.
O that Garden! What a delight! What a beauty! What a marvel! O my Father! You planted a garden. There You put the man whom You had formed, (us-me) but!
You kicked us out for good reason. Even so? You instilled within my being that desire to return to that lost paradise.
But Why A Penthouse?
Well? I don’t live in this world anymore! Like a breach over the troubled waters of this insanity ridden world this Penthouse is to me—a place of quiet and safety over a world of corruption.
To live in Your Presence in a Penthouse Garden—Your gift to me out of Your heart of love? It’s the most wholesome dream there is above the ground and under the sun!
Even So? To The Human Element? That’s My Thing They Say and ….?
They miss the whole message. As long as I am doing my thing? They are free to do their thing. No change. Business as usual.
Enough for an outburst of anger, but! Your Spirit within me? Instills Hope not anger outbursts. Even so? Those anger outbursts do serve a purpose—to jolt awake the sleeping ones set on their things.
These ones doing their own thing or sticking by what they have learned from their trusted sources? They are in danger to face the final judgement.
It is to avoid the final doom or judgement that the angry outbursts must take place. We cannot continue condoling and cajoling each other with vain compliments and beautiful words.
“The Amplified? That’s your thing. I read it in plain English for my better understanding”. The quote in plain English mentions nothing about a place of quiet and safety I quoted in the post from the Amplified version of the Bible.
What? The Most Subtle Way To Express A Superior Knowledge Of The Scriptures.
The message has nothing to do with KNOWLEDGE or UNDERSTANDING. It’s not about knowledge or understanding. It’s all about the work my Father is doing within me to transform me from an educated fool into His unfathomable wisdom way of looking at everything.
My Father has done the work in me. I do not any longer claim to know anything. I let my Father lead the way.
Anger Outburst!
Have I been misleading readers to think otherwise? How can this be after so many years of confessing and renouncing my life of foolishness? But my anger subsided.
I Asked of my Father—What Must I Do Now? I Hear,
Again, My child, You are to do nothing else on your own cognition, but to write and publish and optimize what I quicken to you. I am doing the rest.
Sit still. From now on? Do not call or expect any calls. Do not expect anything from anyone.
I am with you. I am taking care of everything about you and your love ones.
Continue with your task. Do not question your doings. I’m the One quickening you to do whatever you need to do or to write on the spot.
Relax. Sleep. Eat and drink whatever I supply for you. Do not complain.
Closing This Post With The Content For The Next ….?
Thursday, July 26, 2018 at 8:47 am.
In My Distress Last Night? I called upon You to make Yourself real to me. Your reality materialized instantaneously. I composed myself.
You set in my mind the graphical expression about the Penthouse. I proceeded to work on it. The distressful circumstances of last night receded for the moment. Slept on and off. Ate. Drank. Finished the graphic, then? Wow!
The Moment Of Truth ….?
The phone rang. Ahmad on the line? Greetings and apologies. Then? The information, and? Call ended.
The moment of truth begins. That information from Ahmad? Only Your call to face my guilt—my sin. I headed for bed to face that moment. WOW!
That shall be the subject for the next post. Meantime and until the next post? Much love in my heart for you dear Reader and for all. Your sister, thia.
