Alright! It came to me to prepare my cover to move it. Mission accomplished. Now I wait on You for what to do next?
Burst Of Anger Directed At My Father ….?
It’s now Thursday, August 16, 2018 at 9:22 am. I waited and waited until I realized I was waiting for Ahmad to show up to help me. It didn’t happen
So? I decided to go to sleep, but! Before I knew what I was doing? Tears began to flow as I cried unto my Father:
“Why I do this my Father? Why am I hoping for Ahmad to help me knowing that it can’t be done? I need sleep. Maybe when I wake up I’ll have enough strength to take care of this matter myself!”
O my Father? You know that was a fit of anger towards You, but! You let stew until this very moment.
Renewing my Anger ….?
Now I am crying again because I am stuck! I had the strength to pull everything apart. Strength to clean the awful mess that the setup had become, but!
Now? I don’t have the materials to cover the blocks. I don’t have any more strength to pull this thing together anyhow. And I don’t know what to do!
Guess I’m still angry with You for not helping me with Ahmad or anyone else’s help. What am I to do my Father?
What was I to do? Explode this time! ….?
Thursday, August 16, 2018 now at 3:14 pm. What was I to do? Explode! Tears of anger and frustration began to flow profusely. It came to me:
“Call Ahmad. Let him see your state and condition because of his neglect.”
I obeyed. I don’t think it did any good, but! only You know what’s going on with Ahmad. You are in control of it all.
Thank You for letting me explode.
No need for suppress anger. Your word says, ‘Be angry and sin not. Don’t let your anger go past sundown.’