I am in distress again, but! You know it. I don’t know which way to turn. The hurt is back. I hurt all over. It’s quite alarming.
- Maybe I poisoned myself again drinking rehashed mixtures and rehashed food.
- Maybe I’m just stressed out. Overwhelmed with the work ahead of me. I don’t know. I just don’t know.
- Maybe my body is in detox. I don’t know.
Even So? You Promised No Harm Should Come To Me ….?
Whatever is meant to harm me You shall turn it for my good. I refuse to despair. I wait on You. Sooner or later You will lift me over this miserable moment. Maybe I should go back to bed. Hope for sleep?
It’s almost midnight. I am heading for bed and hope for the best.
Same Question, “Where Are You?”
Monday, September 17, 2018 at 5:04 am.
Father? I woke up after 4 am with the same question, where are You? I know You are right here with me, but!
I can’t understand this bout with pain on the daily basis. You gift sleep to me. This time? Four hours.
How Can Anyone Understand ….?
Four hours of deep sleep. Then? You wake me up while You communicate such wonders of great abundance coming to me, but!
The present time of waiting and suffering remain with me, and? I feel like crying because I don’t see or feel You.
How can anyone understand this wonder of my relationship with You? How can anyone understand this amazing experience? No matter.
Nothing Matters But You …?
You are my Master—my Beloved Master. Your will and Your desire for me is all that matters. I am going on. Joyfully and victoriously I am going on!
You are leading me on above the thorns and thistles of pain and suffering in the way. You are my Shepherd. I shall not want for the abundance soon to materialize in the presence of the enemy.
I wait. With patient endurance, I wait on You. That abundance You signified to me in those new purple trousers?