Let all this insanity ridden world depart from me. Let Your Presence shine forth greatly—greater than ever before. I worship You!
Friday, November 16, 2018 at 3:18 am.
O my Father? How faithful and real You are!
Yesterday? Gruesome blow to my moral. I cried unto You, “Unless You give me something concrete to grab on to? I can’t see how I can get over this blow! What on earth for am I proclaiming the restoration of my family?”
Last night? Woke up in agony screaming for help! Can’t remember what shook me violently that I was shaking—scared to death, just then? The phone rang. Ahmad on the line. “Open your door!”
I headed to the door still shaking. Ahmad embraced me and began to comfort me. I kept saying, “I’m so scared!” Ahmad calmly calmed me down. He served a cup of coffee from his thermos. Then?
My fright subsided. I was able to share my heart with Ahmad. Ahmad left. I was able to return to my work. Slept from 11:30 pm until 2:30 am today. I’m now ready to resume my task.
It’s now 8:53 am on this Friday, November 16, 2018. Some 56 years ago I was at the hospital giving birth to my second child. Time flies. It feels that day only happened yesterday.
I will now turn off and unplug the computer. I’ll take a break. Will see what develops. Back on. It’s now Wednesday, November 21, 2018 at 11:30 am. Two hours of sleep did me good.
Moments Of Enlightening, But Then? We Stagnate …
Things are working out fine. My compulsions are coming under control. Funny thing? We all have our moments of enlightening, but then? We stagnate. Why?
A simple matter I have experienced myself. At anytime of inspiration? We set ourselves up to minister that inspiration to the whole world.
We build up our ministries that sometimes grow to an immense follow up, and? There we are! At par with any other worldly leader leading the flock astray.
Under the beams of the lime light we proclaim, “In everything you do put ‘God’ first, but! Who is standing above the multitude’s applaud? Is it ‘God’ or is it ‘ME’?
No Posting For Now ….
Be a long time before I ever post again. Who am I kidding? I have posted enough. Now is time for Father to do the rest. My love for Him supersedes the love for others as the love for myself.