You alone are the One to care for me. To understand me. To deliver me from my own depressing moods. The ups and the dawns continue. Just when You tell me I am now steady? Up pops a down mood for no reason at all.
The sun is shinning right here on me while I sit at my desk writing, but! I am still cold and uncomfortable. Is this the way to be for me for all my days on this world that You so love?
Be this Your will for me? Let it be. Not my will but Your will be done always. No matter how my body feels? All is well with my soul. Your Presence remains. You never leave nor forsake me. I worship You.
Weeping Comes By Night But Dancing The Next Morning …?
Sunday, January 6, 2019 at 1:59 pm.
After my day and night of weeping yesterday, this morning? It came to me to post all written yesterday under a different headline. So I did. When finish posting? Still in a mood, listening to the wind making havoc outside.
Inside the apartment? Colder than ever. I tried to call Ahmad but no answer. That didn’t help my mood, so I prepared to go to bed. Suddenly! A knock on my door. I jumped to answer it. Wow! Ahmad stepped inside to my delight. Mood? Gone!
O My Father! How Mysterious Are Your Ways …?
You knew all along why I was in such mood. You gave sunshine. You gave me power to do my chores. I could even sense the smell of Your Presence, but! The bad mood persisted through the night, and?
I could not understand what or why I was in such mood, until this morning when Ahmad came in to my utter surprise, why the mood? Because Ahmad told me yesterday he was not coming to spend the day with me as promised. He was to come at night.