Uplifting? Heartbreaking? Encouraged? Discouraged? Who Cares? …

Me? I No Longer Want To Anticipate Any Of My Feelings Or My Doings, But I am human…?

A Dream Or Was It A Vision?…

Sunday, January 13, 2019 now at 9:34 am.

I was recording the post for today. Before I knew it? I woke up still laughing—I had falling asleep while typing. Sleepy again! It’s 9:51 am. Heading for bed.

An E-mail …?

Sunday, January 13, 2019 now at 3:13 pm.

Guess what? I had the most fun and happy dream in a long time. It seems that I was at the bank tellers window. I remember distinctly going from one teller to the next but I don’t remember why or what I was asking for.

I remember writing something of a piece of paper and giving it to that next teller. He in turn wrote something and gave me the paper back and left the window but his note was in Arabic.

I turned to the left and ask what that note said but the person did not help me neither another one I asked. Meantime the teller returned with the manager and I handed her the note saying ‘No Arabic me!”

I must to had a dumb look because the manager burst out laughing. I started laughing myself. The manager then laughing with note in hand got out from behind the counter, it looks like that bank was in the food core of a mall.

The manager went to a group in a table and showed them my  note. They all looked my way and started laughing. We were all happily laughing.Then? the teller from the window, I don’t how he passed on to me a fantastic golden-brown chicken on a beautiful tray with all the trimmings fit for a queen!

I was hungry, so? I turned to the closest table and began to eat. I was delightfully eating and laughing and I woke up actually laughing!

The interpretation that most fit the way I sensed the meaning of it all when I woke up? It says:

If somebody that you know offers you food in a dream and you subsequently eat whatever they are giving you – can suggest that you’re going to be given a gift in life. This gift will make you stronger, especially your subconscious mind. It really indicates that you are going to be fed information that will make your content. Dreaming of eating food can be connected to how we are healing ourselves.

Even so? I am still waiting only on our Father. Weather that was Him comforting me on these hard times that I am going through or NOT, it does not change my trust and confidence on our Father alone. He is in control of it all. Even in control of my wishful thinking. May His will not mine be done!

I Am Human. I Feel. I Think. I Do. Who Cares …?

Monday, January 14, 2019 at 12:51 am.

A new day on this first month of 2019. Time marches on. What will it be today, my Father? The wind is raging again. Snow is predicted. Will it disrupt the city’s business? Perhaps.

It looks like the people is excited about it—expecting a holiday from the event. Me? I no longer want to anticipate any of my feelings or my doings. You are in control of it all. Going to bed. Hope for sleep. 1:00 am.

A Dream Or Was It A Vision? Who cares …?

Monday, January 14, 2019 now at 6:41 am.

I was recording the last post. As I typed the last word in that post? I woke up still laughing—I had dozed off while typing and? A dream or was it a vision? No time to digest it. Need to sleep. Go to bed. Time? Sunday, January 13, 2019 now at 9:51 am.

That happened yesterday. The day lagged on. I slept. I woke up. My mind? My feelings? My imaginations? Up. Down. Around about the meaning of the dream. It came to me to get in touch with somebody to put things in right perspective.

I tried to get in touch with Ahmad to no avail. Then it came to me to share my dream with my daughter. I did on Sunday, January 13, 2019 by then around 3 pm. Much anticipation as I waited for reply.

What was I anticipating? Perhaps a response confirming the meaning of the dream. Eventually the awaited response came with cheers. Not at all what I was, without realizing it, hoping for. So?

I wrote back sharing my thoughts and my hopes with my child. Again? Set myself up to wait for her reply with much anticipation. O me! Why do I set myself up for disappointments? Beats me but that’s what inevitable I do.

Reply did not come. I went to sleep hoping to find a reply on waking up. I woke up at 5:23 am. My child has not yet replied. I started with my usual disappointment. I headed for the journal to record. Instead? I clicked my Teacher’s bidding. Wow!

Forget All Disappointments! Set My Mind On The Only Reality That Counts …?

How? Why the file glaring at me on the computer screen? I began to read while the lovely voice crying in the wilderness of the multitude resonated to me, ‘This is your post for the day.’ On Que? Here it is:

From My Presence in My beloved Thia’s journal…

Wednesday, July 28, 2010 (10:14 pm).

Thank You O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua for Your living Presence within me. For I am such a silly one to whine and feel sorry for myself for not getting the attention from anyone continuously, but!

When You—in Your living Presence within me remind me of Your delight in me? My whining immediately ceases and all turns out well for my soul even when I do not have the attention from any human being. What a blessing!

Attention getting is primordial for a human being and I am human. So? It’s only natural that I suffer for lack of attention. Yet You have resolved my predicament; how did it all happened my Master?

There are so many solutions offered to resolve this plot of the human personality but none of them is suitable for You. I know that to be a fact by my own experience of a life lived under psychiatrists and psychologists and social workers.

There is no doubt in my mind that human beings have no solution for such plot of the human personality. for no human being was ever able to resolve my plot in a suitable and permanent way.

Yes, there are many ways to overcome the craving for attention by self-discipline and the finding of alternative ways to distract one for such craving for attention but not of them really works.

O yes one might get a temporary fix for such craving but not a worthy solution like You have given to me. What is this solution my Master?

“O My child—My beloved Thia, basically?

• You are right, attention getting is primordial in all human beings. The fact?
• It is actually the root cause for mankind’s troubles and tribulations. For such is the basis for the drive to achieve in mankind’s mind!

“My child—My beloved Thia, the fact?

• All human beings struggle to get the necessary attention to achieve and succeed in this world of civilized beings even at the cost of their own existence.
• Yet they struggle in vain! For this struggle wears them out to the point of total exhaustion of human powers to carry the burden of such life! And all for what?
• At the end they wind up with only a flimsy notion of personal satisfaction which amounts to nothing compared to their ultimate struggle they had to endure during their entire lives!

“My child—My beloved Thia?

• There is only one solution for such plot of the human personality. Yahushua Messiah clearly spelled it out for you all as it is written,

Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest. I will ease and relieve and refresh your souls. Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me, for I am gentle (meek) and humble (lowly) in heart, and you will find rest (relief and ease and refreshment and recreation and blessed quiet) for your souls. For My yoke is wholesome (useful, good—not harsh, hard, sharp, or pressing, but comfortable, gracious, and pleasant), and My burden is light and easy to be borne. Said Yahushua in Matthew 11:28-30

“And so My child—My beloved Thia?

• When My children heed those words they will find the solution for their troubled lives!

“And so My child—My beloved Thia?

• Imprint these words in large print for your troubled friend and for all troubled ones of My children of your acquaintance to read and consider and reconsider until?

• I am enabled to empower them to obey and pay heed to My loving beckoning!”

It is done my Master!

May this composite please You and accomplish the purpose You desire! In my part I will keep on singing of Your mercies O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua forever I shall sing! For You reign above all within my heart! May Your Kingdom come and Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven as well as in the heart of all my and Your loved ones!

Intense love for all, thiaBasilia. 🙂