When Yahushua had finished these sayings [the Sermon on the Mount], the crowds were astonished and overwhelmed with bewildered wonder at His teaching, For He was teaching as One Who had [and was] authority, and not as [did] the scribes. (Matthew 7:21-29). End of quote.
Ah! That’s Not For Me! That’s For? …
It’s now Tuesday, February 19, 2019 at 3:00 pm.
O my Father? I’m coming boldly to Your throne of grace and favor to ask for help. You know how I am feeling and why? I do not know exactly why, but! I’m just down.
Perhaps Reading, Reconsidering The Sermon On The Mount …?
Perhaps reading, reconsidering the Sermon on the Mount under the Light of Your Spirit—my Teacher—my Shepherd? I will create a graphic to express this moment.
Don’t Know Which Way To Turn, My Father …
It’s now Tuesday, February 19, 2019 at 8:32 pm.
Not a sign of help at all. My feet are burning. My body is not collaborating. My spirit is willing to help myself, but the flesh is weak.
What A Sight I Am! even so?
You know it my Father. You are helping me. I refuse to worry. I refuse to complain. I refuse to feel sorry for myself. I’m blessed.
You Are With Me And For Me.
You are giving me the strength to wash my hair. I must prepare my clothes change. Then I will prepare all things in the bathroom. Thanks, my Father. I feel better already.
Unreasonable? No Matter …?
Tuesday, February 19, 2019 now at 11:20 pm.
Well, my Father? It looks like I was unreasonable asking Ahmad for help. He agreed he will come but! It has not happened yet. Now what? I hear, Let be. Be still.
His Power Of Love And Wisdom Avails …?
I guess I do not need to wash my hair tonight. I’ll wait until the morning. Hopefully there will be sunshine in the morning.
At least I got organized. Tomorrow? I’ll carry the hot water little by little to the bathroom. Hopefully? I will wash my hair and be done with it, but!
Resentment? Anger? …
O my Father? Deliver me from resentment. I do not want to harbor ill feelings towards Ahmad. You are our keeper. You are in control of it all.
Even so? I just as well come clean with You. The lurking question pops up again. Is all of this drama going on between Ahmad and I Your will or?
Doubt On Top Of That …?
Is it something that I have devised and now I am too stubborn to give it up? Just when I sense Your approval? Things get worse, and? I’m left in the blank.
I’m At The Point To Withstand All Inconveniences, But!
When it comes to the awful pain from my bones to my head and scalp? You know it, my Father. You know it. I can’t help but to feel sorry for myself.
Whatever!
This day is ending and so is my waiting for Ahmad. I’m ready to put my clothing away, turn off all things, and try to sleep.
Once Again? Your Power Of Love & Wisdom Prevails …
Wednesday, February 20, 2019 at 12:49 am.
