Living Learning And More At My 80th…

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Renewed? Nothing Like I Ever Imagine …

Power To Be Loved To Love. Wisdom. Peace. Humility. Harmony. Humor …

My Life Begins  To End No More …

Saturday, June 15, 2019 at 12:22 am.

Renewed! Only problem? My human mind remains human—my worst enemy churning out foul debris to taint the beauty of my renewal, but!

I Live Under The Shadow Of The Almighty Whose Power No Foe Can Withstand. So? …

I woke up not feeling renewed at all! Leg cramps made me jump out of bed. Pain. Depression. Discouraged. Hopeless again. What brought all that up? The numerous ‘Happy Birthdays’ plus Ahmad, wife, and Maria’s visit?

It Hit Me Hard! But All Of It? Did Nothing For The Longing In My Soul …

How in heaven’s name can I live with such heavy burden in my soul? And why am I not healed? What to do? Whatever I do it backfires on me. On top of it all? Computer messing up.

  • At 1:10 am will turn off unplug comp. go to bed. Wait. Up at 4:45 am. Not much improvement. Alone again. Silence from above. Turn on Photoshop. Began to create.

Thinking About What I Write? A Reminder …

Saturday, June 15, 2019 at 1:31 pm.

  • But of that [exact] day and hour no one knows, not even the angels of heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.
  • As were the days of Noah, so will be the coming of the Son of Man. For just as in those days before the flood they were eating and drinking, [men] marrying and [women] being given in marriage, until the [very] day when Noah went into the ark,
  • And they did not know or understand until the flood came and swept them all away–so will be the coming of the Son of Man. Matthew 24:36-39

For Me? A Reminder Of The Consequences Of Past Behavior …

I been dreaming of a daisy plant. Have made it known to Ahmad, but! He claims daisies not in bloom? Strange. Anyhow? Last night he brought me a plant non to my liking. Didn’t let on my dislike, but!

It Brought To My Mind The Lack Of Connection Between Us, And? …

I lifted my voice on high. Father? Where is that man You have to connect with me? I know Ahmad is bound and determinate to take care of me for the rest of my life, but!

Ahmad Does Not Have The Means To Help Me …

O my Master! I am so lonely. Why am I in this predicament? Where is that man to understand, to pamper me like my Honey did? O but I so miss him. Suddenly!

It Came To Me, Ahmad Is Your Gift To Me, But! I Do Not Like Him …

Wow! You gifted me two husbands to take care of me. I did not like them. Am I doing the same with Your gift of a son?

Even So? You Gifted Me A 3rd Man—What A Gift …

But then? You took him away. Ha! Just now I am realizing why? I stand open and exposed, naked and defenseless to the eyes of Him with Whom I have to do.

Pain. Depression. Discouraged. Hopeless Again? The Power Of Your Word Cutting Such Dross. Quote:

For the Word that the Master speaks is alive and full of power [making it active, operative, energizing, and effective]; it is sharper than any two-edged sword, penetrating to the dividing line of the breath of life (soul) and [the immortal] spirit, and of joints and marrow [of the deepest parts of our nature], exposing and sifting and analyzing and judging the very thoughts and purposes of the heart. Hebrews 4:12 End of quote.

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