Have I Been Offended/Insulted By The Truth?
Big Time! Wished To Die, But!
That was the moment to face the truth about myself. That was the moment of my deliverance. The moment to set me free from the Truth about myself offending/insulting me.
Jerusalem was thriving with excitement. The Sukkoth Festival? Ha! she had coached me for several months since I left the USA. She had promised to perhaps meet me at the Festival in Jerusalem.
No Words To Described My Anticipation To Meet With What I Considered To Be My Mentor And Friend …
Word came. She had arrived in Jerusalem. At last the email. My heart pumping with anticipation? I clicked the email WHAT? What a shock! Quote:
Nothing wrong with your Theology. You are self-centered! I have no time to meet with you!
The end of the world came to me at that treacherous moment. I shut down the computer. I grabbed unto my Scriptures. I threw myself on the bed saying, “I’ll never again shall write one more word. I’m no good!”
Silence. Don’t remember crying. Just silence. Then? Suddenly! I heard,
“My Thia, My beloved, open the door of your chamber for I am knocking. I come to take you higher up to My Mountain to be alone with Me.”
Master, my door is open or is it not? Give me the eyes to see the door of my heart and the ability to open it wide to You.
“My beloved, in your heart there are many chambers and I have come to inhabit those chambers, but, now I wish to come in, in the most intimate and deepest chamber where no one else should be allowed.”
Master! My Beloved Master! By all means! Take the key that I can’t find and open the door for my secret chambers! By all means! My Beloved, take the key to my secret chambers and keep it as Your eternal property! I want no one else to invade such intimate quarters!
“My beloved, My Thia, the key to your secret chambers is now in My possession and I am taking residence in that deepest and most Set Apart chamber of your heart!
No one shall disturb you any longer, whether they come or go, whether they call or not, whether they are kind or un-kind, whether they are friend or foe, whether they are your flesh and blood or perfect strangers, NO ONE should ever disturb you anymore!”
O my Master! Are You now taking me to Your Mountain top? What am I to do? What am I to feel? What am I to think? Tell me my Master! Do unto me as it is pleasing in Your sight!
“My beloved Thia, you are now beyond the realm of disturbing feelings and emotions and imaginations.