Have I Been Offended/Insulted By The Truth?
Big Time! Wished To Die, But!
That was the moment to face the truth about myself. That was the moment of my deliverance. The moment to set me free from the Truth about myself offending/insulting me.
Jerusalem was thriving with excitement. The Sukkoth Festival? Ha! she had coached me for several months since I left the USA. She had promised to perhaps meet me at the Festival in Jerusalem.
No Words To Described My Anticipation To Meet With What I Considered To Be My Mentor And Friend …
Word came. She had arrived in Jerusalem. At last the email. My heart pumping with anticipation? I clicked the email WHAT? What a shock! Quote:
Nothing wrong with your Theology. You are self-centered! I have no time to meet with you!
The end of the world came to me at that treacherous moment. I shut down the computer. I grabbed unto my Scriptures. I threw myself on the bed saying, “I’ll never again shall write one more word. I’m no good!”
Silence. Don’t remember crying. Just silence. Then? Suddenly! I heard,
“My Thia, My beloved, open the door of your chamber for I am knocking. I come to take you higher up to My Mountain to be alone with Me.”
Master, my door is open or is it not? Give me the eyes to see the door of my heart and the ability to open it wide to You.
“My beloved, in your heart there are many chambers and I have come to inhabit those chambers, but, now I wish to come in, in the most intimate and deepest chamber where no one else should be allowed.”
Master! My Beloved Master! By all means! Take the key that I can’t find and open the door for my secret chambers! By all means! My Beloved, take the key to my secret chambers and keep it as Your eternal property! I want no one else to invade such intimate quarters!
“My beloved, My Thia, the key to your secret chambers is now in My possession and I am taking residence in that deepest and most Set Apart chamber of your heart!
No one shall disturb you any longer, whether they come or go, whether they call or not, whether they are kind or un-kind, whether they are friend or foe, whether they are your flesh and blood or perfect strangers, NO ONE should ever disturb you anymore!”
O my Master! Are You now taking me to Your Mountain top? What am I to do? What am I to feel? What am I to think? Tell me my Master! Do unto me as it is pleasing in Your sight!
“My beloved Thia, you are now beyond the realm of disturbing feelings and emotions and imaginations.
From now on all your doings shall become sensible and your feelings for goodness shall intensify as well as your feelings for badness.
And your thoughts shall be under the captivity of My thoughts. This drastic change within your being shall soon take hold of the hearts of many who would turn to Me and esteem My name as they see your good works.”
Master, what about these festivals and different things that Your people are so deep into? What am I to do? What am I to respond to inquires as to my behavior on these days of excitement for Your people?
And, Master, what am I to do about my health? What about all the body discomforts I suffer all the time? Am I to do anything about my body? How am I to take care of my body?
“My beloved, say and do exactly as I have been leading you to say and do. Do not relent in speaking My WORD as it is written.
Truly, My Thia, your time has come to delight Me and from here on out ALL things and ALL matters shall come to pass in your life as it is written and as I have been telling you personally.
My beloved Thia, I am well aware of your physical condition. Your body is continuously decaying on account of the environmental conditions caused by the sin of mankind under the evil influence of our enemy.
Nonetheless, you have nothing to worry about because My grace is sufficient unto you; that means that you are able to withstand all and any discomfort in your body and rejoice rather than complain about it.
You are in excellent health and I will keep your body in healthy conditions until the time comes to invest you with a new body immune to decay.
My beloved Thia, from now on you will be sitting still and yet your activity in the realm of My invisible Kingdom shall intensify ten fold.
As of this instant I am taking control of your imaginations. Your steps shall be steady as you move in any direction.
And the song of praise and adoration to Me shall intensify to the point of the highest heaven.
Truly, My beloved, I AM in your deepest chambers! Nothing and no one can disturb you now!
Today is a very especial Sabbath and I shall teach you the way to come into My rest.
Your actions from here on shall be beyond your plans and ideas of what it should be done.
You will do the right and proper things without even thinking or premeditating ahead of time.
There will not any longer be any anxiety in your life even in the most arid places in the absence of human touch and care.
My Thia, My beloved, rejoice! Rejoice and be glad for your time has come to inhabit My Mountain top now and forever!”
Wow! I guess I won’t post this amazing word fulfilled today because I am sleepy. By the time I wake up the Net won’t work. It’s now Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 am.
Absolutely Awesome! Those Words? …
Sailing the turbulent waves of these lower seas? I had even forgotten those words until this moment. Ten years beaten by the treacherous waves this world could to me thrust me under.
Even So? My Master Lives In My Deepest Chamber! …
Nothing and no one have been able to really disturb me despite all my lapses and preoccupations. Brutal pain and lack of gain? Almost to the exact day I am typing these lines without pain—no worries about my lack of gain.
Let’s go to the details if we must.
What’s With This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory Been Writing About? …
Will Do My Best To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain …
Friday, September 13, 2019 at 1:56 pm.
Why do I keep regressing instead of progressing? Day by day the answer is coming clear to me but not to thee, dear Reader follower.
Therefore? This Introduction …
Let me summarize the sequence of events. Our lives come in cycles. In my life? I don’t know exactly when each cycle begins and ends except for this last cycle starting with An Extended Adventurous Voyage—the present cycle I am living in.
Here is the list of post from present to previous for your reference to understand this introduction.
- Ahoy! The Turquoise Rose Ship!
- Posted on September 11, 2019by thiaBasilia
- An Extended Adventurous Voyage …
- Posted on September 7, 2019by thiaBasilia
- What Troubles Me? What Troubles You? Have You Been Face To Face With The Cause Not The Matter? …
- Posted on August 23, 2019by thiaBasilia
- You Might Enjoy Learning The Same One Who Sustains Me Sustains You …
- Posted on August 17, 2019by thiaBasilia
- You Might Enjoy Learning Who Sustains Me …
- Posted on August 16, 2019by thiaBasilia
- Announcing Or Announcement? I Chose Announcement …
- Posted on July 30, 2019by thiaBasilia
Strange, But! Since I Started The Present Cycle? Not Many Clicks …
What is happening? I already explained the matter in the An Extended Adventurous Voyage post, but! It looks like it made no difference to my readers.
I Not Concerned About The Clicks, But!? …
I am concerned with how I am coming through to my readers. What came to me just this morning? To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain.
- It is plain to me how everything that happens in the physical realm has its source in the spiritual realm.
Our Physical Pain Has Its Source In What Is Buried In Our Spirits—The Deepest Part Of Our Beings …
Friday, September 13, 2019 at 3:49 pm.
I am learning these things on the daily and moment to moment basis with every stage of my physical condition. The fluctuation of my physical condition troubles me big time.
That’s Why I Keep Regressing Instead Of Progressing, Until This Morning …?
What happened this morning? I had been in the gutter of my own negative thinking since yesterday when I came into the knowledge of being a ‘lame duck’ for lack of Ahmad’s support.
Down I Went! All Day. All Night. Until The Master Lift Me Up Earlier Today …
Friday, September 13, 2019 at 10:52 pm.
Earlier today I got up from bed because I could not sleep. My mind kept churning with Ahmad’s lack of support. I kept begging for help. The answer came to my inbox.
Just Out Of Curiosity? I Clicked The Headline …
Wow! First glimpse of the people’s coming to terms with reality. I was impressed. Though that not in total agreement with the author of the post? I replied to comment. Quote:
I’m impressed! Radical Judgement of one’s self is the one thing, perhaps the only thing to solve our problems. Over and over I must radically judge myself.
Dear Reader, I will give you a bulleted summary of how this renewal of mine has been on the making for the last 45 years since 1974 when I discover the Scriptures.
- The year was 1974—I discovered the Scriptures. Got into the unknown spiritual realm. Lost my mind. Stopped reading the Scriptures.
- The year was 1979—amazing healing experience from deep wound inflicted upon me in my childhood. The result? Regain my physical health. Back in the Scriptures.
- The year was 1983—Gruesome divorce. Felt apart. Lost hope. Lost all morals. Hit the top of immoral living.
- The year was 1985—Suddenly! Unexpectedly! My whole life was run like a film strip in my view. What did I realize as I viewed the film?
- I had gone through life unaware of the secret saving power of the Spirit of the Almighty Creator of my being, taking everything and everybody for granted without consideration of anything other than my own understanding of life, and the raw feelings of my emotions.
- A second mental breakdown.
- Called to journal my life, but! Did not listen.
- The year was 1986—convicted. Power to quit my work. Power to listen.
- The year was 1987—began new life under my gifted friend’s care. Began to journal my life consistently.
- The year was 1992—saddest year for me, my gifted friend died. I became lost. I felt abandoned. Back to my old life of family and church.
- The year was 1994—bought property. Became sort of independent. Happy time.
- The year was 1995—depression treatment? Electric shocks. Almost destroyed me. My daughter rescued me, but that’s the year my prescription drug addiction began.
- The year was 1999—inspired to go live with family. Sold my property. Things did not work out. I felt spiritually dead.
- The year was 2001—back on my own again. Got beautiful apartment, but! Got involved in helping seniors instead of my call to journal my life as instructed to do.
- The year was 2007—that’s the year I dropped unconscious, victim of misdiagnose. Rushed to the emergency room at the point of death. Convicted. Repented. Restored.
- The year was 2008—called to go to the ‘lost sheep of Israel. Power to accept the call.
- The year was 2009—called to get out of the USA. Destination? The wilderness of people to judge me face to face.
- The year was 2015—call to go with my gifted son Ahmad. He is to be my authority while we wait for Yahushua’s return.
- The year was 2017—got the roof apartment of my dreams. My renewed life began.
- The year is now 2019—WOW! What a year it has been. This is to be the year of our jubilee, but! O well?
It Surely Doesn’t Look Like Jubilee At All! But!
The Almighty Creator is in control of His creation. I am committed and submitted to Him as my supreme Authority. He has declared me to be His messenger. So? End of quote.
Reading And Commenting On That Post? It Brought Me To My Senses …
Reflecting on what I read? That’s what stopped the flow of negative thoughts. Then? I was able to hear my Master’s instructions to call Ahmad.
It Does Not Matter How It Looks To Us All …
Me? I’m, I have been going through another rough period of my journey. Don’t know what is to be even in the next moment. I go up and down, but!
O My Master! You Are Faithful To Your Word To Sustain Me …
Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 12:04 am.
One more 7th Day of Rest. Things don’t look too good between Ahmad and me. I am somewhat dejected, but! I am resting on You. I keep remembering Your recent words to comfort me. Quote:
“Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”
The Sting Of Ahmad’s Words To Release His Anger? …
Enough fuel for my dejection, but! I’m taking what I give. I spit out similar words to him to release my own anger, and?
That’s A Good Thing! Be Ye Angry And Sin Not …?
Wow! Thanks, my Master! How amazing are Your words when You apply them to my inner being. To release one’s anger keeps one from the festering resentment that causes all our physical pain and misery.
Now I Am Beginning To Understand The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …?
Perhaps this introduction will help my readers to understand such power as well. On to the details of what is going on in my journey.
Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on!
Human Integrity? Limited. Questionable Big Time …?
No Kidding! That’s Not My Idea, Dear Readers …?
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 3:57 am.
I wish it was because then you would be justified in abandoning this blog, but! The truth is now coming to light in many blogs/books and such other than this single post.
Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on! …?
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:11 am.
How can that be? Everybody thinks highly of me. I’m faithful. I live by the word. I help the orphans and the widows. I support the Church and ministers. I – I – I – am a good Christian woman.
Me? How Can That Be? Talking about offended? Until …
Until the reality of truth hit my gut! It’s Wednesday, September 11, 2019 at 10:36 pm. Know what? I’m having an awful time writing about this issue.
Insults, Or What Is Considered As An Insult? Turns A One Away …
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:26 am.
Indeed! Turns a one away from the source of the insult without hesitation. Thus? Many of my followers have abandoned this blog offended by the truth that will set them free. Even so?
The Almighty Sole Creator Of Our Beings Has Not Abandoned Them …?
Not a single one of His begotten children shall be lost. He plans to restore every single one of us. Only? His ways to do it all? Simple but! Illogical!
The Human Mind Cannot Grasp Such Ways …
That’s the fact to be exact. There is no need for me to be concerned about the followers of this blog. There is no need for me to be concerned about my loved one’s present behavior.
Master? You Are Lifting Me Up To Sail The High Seas …
The high seas away from any country’s jurisdiction. Away from my preoccupation with the human element. Your plan of restoration is coming to pass exactly as You have decreed it to pass despite all my preoccupations.
That’s The Fact To Be Exact. On To High Seas This Day I’ll Sail …
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at.4:47 am.
O my Master! You have set me free from all my preoccupations. All around me I see, I read all the goings on of my people near and far. On this moment of time?
My Soul Is Free—On To High Seas I’ll Sail—Holding On To My Master’s Rail …
Clarity is in my mind to see far and beyond the furthest realm my imagination could find. The splendid future? Not so far away now.
It Might Be Days-Weeks-Months-Even Years, But! …
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:25 am.
The splendid future is already here. In my heart. In my mind. Because in Your Presence? That future I find. Because You live? I can live that future. Because You live? All fear is gone!
I Am Sailing On High Seas Away From The Storms Of Lower Seas Because …?
You have risen in my mind to calm it down. On high seas I am sailing while You are at the helm. No need to be overwhelmed because You are at the helm. Even so?
Reality! On Lower Seas? I’m A Lame Duck …?
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 12:53 pm.
A new pain. My right leg now hurts at my groin. I limp when I walk. It came to me, “You are a lame duck!” What? Coming to think about it that’s what my situation with Ahmad amounts to it.
What Is A Lame Duck? …
It can be an individual who has been elected for a definite purpose but! Is unable to fulfill his purpose for lack of support. I been elected to bring good news to Ahmad but Ahmad is no longer support me. Wow!
O My Master! What A Way To Sober Me Up …?
I been trying to live up to the allegory of The Turquoise Rose Ship! Been trying to sail on high seas away from the jurisdiction of this world. But I find myself sailing still on these lower seas of pain and lack of gain.
What Am I Now To Do With This Knowledge, My Master? …
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 1:58 pm.
I hear You, “Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”
Thanks, My Master! The Oppression Of The Moment Is Brutal, But! …
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 6:49 pm.
Relief. A cup of mint/basil tea helped. The time? In a moment this oppression shall be history. The noise around me. The silence inside. The pain in my right hand and shoulder?
Your Grace Is Sufficient Unto Me To Suffer It All Graciously …
I’m going on. Sober on lower seas. Fearless on higher ones. Either way? You are at the helm of The Turquoise Rose Ship I’m sailing on. No need to be overwhelm.
Open The Door! Turn On The Light. Hit The Sack. That’s That!
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:10 pm.
I did but it didn’t help. Guess that was not that! Excruciating pain. So be it. I refuse to complain. A cup of pure coffee with honey seems to be helping.
You Are In Control. No Matter What? I Refuse To Complain …
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 10:56 pm.
I am not out of ideas to help myself, but! I’m replete with respect and fear for and of You. I will not repine. I wait on You with patience and composure. Shut off pc. 11:20 pm.
Ready To Talk Turkey Again, My Master. You Know It, But!
Friday, September 13, 2019 at 6:04 am.
First? I sense You calling me to sleep. Well? I guess You were not calling me to sleep. I could not sleep. I got up. All kinds of things been running through my mind because of pain, lack of appetite and now lack of sleep.
You Have Shown To Me All Physical Conditions Are Rooted In The Spiritual …
Friday, September 13, 2019 at 8:44 am.
Every single day You demonstrate what You show to me. My body reacts to what is going on in my spirit. A Lame Duck? That revelation threw me for spin downwards.
I Reverted To My Old Way Of Thinking Big Time, But! …
You kept me from staying there. Even so? A Lame Duck? Because Ahmad is not supporting me. From that thinking? Because. Because. Because kept churning in my mind until a moment ago.
It Came To Me, Why Are Sitting Here Imagining All Sorts Of Because? …
Call Ahmad. Find out what’s going on. Sure enough, I called. Didn’t have in mind to blow up in anger but that’s exactly what I did. Next? I began to think of jumping ship, but then?
I Lift Up My Voice, Where Can I Go From Your Spirit My Master? …
Behold! Your Power Of Love and wisdom. It Never Fails. It Always Avails! I began to reason, You have planted me here. I am established. I am safe and secure. What nonsense is this of ‘jumping ship’?
Back To Your Track. Holding On To Your Rail On High Sea Waters …
High Sea Waters? Treacherous waters! Unless I hold on to Your rail? I’ll be drowning without fail, but! You are at the helm. Should I let go of Your rail? You tilt the ship to save my tail—a take from Psalms 37:23-24.
The steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Master when He delights in his way [and He busies Himself with his every step]. Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Master grasps his hand in support and upholds him.
Where Am I Going From Here On? I Don’t Know. My Master Knows …
Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 5:39 am.
O My Father—O Father Of Mine? You know all about Your purpose and plan for these writings. Whether I sound pretensions or not? True or false? It’s Your plan to make it known to all.
Me? You Know I Can’t Take Much More …
Between suffering the consequences of my human reactions to fly/flies to ants annoying me while awake or sleep, plus the troubles between Ahmad and me? I am simply worn out. At my wits end again.
Even So? You Are Holding Me Up. I Cannot Jump Ship …?
I am staying put. Sometimes sober. Sometimes I lose it. For the most? Busy searching my writings for files I cannot find, but! One thing I know for sure.
Under No Circumstances Or Excuses Shall I Ever Use Your Name Or Your Word To Achieve Worldly Success …?
To that end You have drastically dealt with me. I am appalled at my own self’s distasteful hypocrisy! But I am thankful for Your hand of discipline to set me free. A take from Psalms 139. Quote:
You know my down-sitting and my uprising; You understand my thought afar off. [Mat 9:4; Joh 2:24-25]
You sift and search out my path and my lying down, and You are acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word in my tongue [still unuttered], but, behold, O Master, You know it altogether. [Heb 4:13]
You have beset me and shut me in–behind and before, and You have laid Your hand upon me.
My Distasteful Hypocrisy In Chasing Millions …
Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 6:46 am.
Reflecting on what I read that jolted me back on my Master’s track? Besides the admonishing to judge myself radically, a quote shone a beam of Your light to really expose that hypocrisy. Quote:
“Ego is the absolute impediment to Dao. The sin is pride. If it thrills you that you’re enlightened then you’re ruined. Forget sharing it. You’re not pure enough to share it.” — Terence McKenna
Even So? It All Comes To Me From Your Hand Of Mercy …
O my Master! I am not any longer thrilled about my enlightenment on the matter of receiving any enticing emails from Ray Edward et all. In fact? I am appalled! But!
Even That—Appalled? Could Be A Thrill Of My Carnal Nature, So? …
Therefore? I quit. I am letting go of everything. Including my thinking. My ideas and concepts. You are filling my mind with the opposite of all of that as You promised to do a long time ago. Quote:
O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua You spoke to my heart on the morning of August 8, 1985. You said to me at that moment:
“I have been shaping you into a vessel, a beautiful vessel to hold flowers, beautiful flowers of love. These flowers are not yours, they belong to Me and I give them to whom I please: you are only holding them as they sit in the water of My love with which I have filled you.
You cannot give out these flowers on your own, because you are only a vessel holding them; but I will send you those to whom I have given the flowers you are holding; some will pick just the flowers from you, and some will pick you up, and use you to bring good news and cheer to others.
Rest in Me and hold My flowers. Do not put your own flowers in that vessel of yourself; because they are the flowers that wilt and don’t last; but the flowers that I am letting you hold will last forever.”
And what kind of flowers are those Father? I asked. And You said to me:
“You are only the vessel to hold these flowers and you need not to know what kind of flowers they are, again I say, rest on Father and just know that you are holding MY flowers and not your flowers.”
Then You spoke to me a second Word to answer my dilemma at that time. I asked, ‘Father? Are You trying to tell me to quit looking at what I do and what I say and just to rely on You that what I am saying comes from You and what I am is what You are working with and that You are in control and to quit doubting everything because it doesn’t fit exactly with what I think and what I reason to be Okay, Father?’ And You answered me,
“I am not trying to tell you. I am telling you. I am telling you just that.
You look, you wobble, you go back and forth like a seesaw because you are taking your eyes off of ME.
Even in your typing that is what is happening to you, you take your eyes off the master copy to look at what you are copying. You are being self-conscious.
Fix your eyes on Me, I am your Master, I am in control, relax, I have taken your yoke and done away with it, now take My yoke, for My yoke is easy.”
Father, help me! I pleaded. And with Your infinite patience You told me,
“I am helping you, I am talking to you plainly, and you know I have touched you and made you whole. Quit trying to perfect My work.
Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.
Whenever you remember something you have forgotten, realize that I reminded you of it, and that I allow you to forget about certain things for My own reasons, even if you don’t understand My reasons.
You are not to know everything now because you can’t take it, it will blow your mind.
Picture yourself as a vessel, but in your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time, that is why I have to pour slowly and gently in order to fill you, and that is why I have to shape you to enlarge your opening so I can fill you.
Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings.
That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor.
It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.
I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So, don’t worry about anything.
Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being.
Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of.
You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”
Serious Reflection On The Last Paragraphs You Bring To My Mind …
“Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings. That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor. It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.
“I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So don’t worry about anything.
“Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being. Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”
So Be It. Though I Feel Like Crying For I Am Sad? …
No matter. Because my feelings are on this world’s shores, but! You have lifted me up to sail the high seas away from this world’s shores.
Whether I Sadly Cry Or Not? All It Matters Is To Be Near You On High Or Lower Seas …?
I’m going on. I’ll post these lines with my hope and expectation set on You by the power of Your love and wisdom, but! Before I post I must add the latest as I woke up this morning.
Continuous Constant Change …?
- Cycles Of Life Repeating It Selves Precisely …
The First Day With No Pain …
Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 pm
I slept until 2:54 am. Thank Goodness! The end of my 7th Day of Rest came with the realization of Your Presence manifestation in a day without pain.
Twelve Years Since? This Cycle Of My Journey Began …
Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 3:22 am.
The year was 2007. Saturday, September 15, 2007 to be exact. Alone I sat reading the recent acquired article on Daniel 8. I began to see the parallel. Suddenly! I was called to the carpet. Quote:
It was a Saturday on September 15, 2007. I was keeping the 7th Day of Rest all by my lonesome. I was reading an article written by Yedidah on Daniel 8. Suddenly! It came to me something to this effect,
- “Such is the message I have given to you to proclaim to the world. You are no longer doing so. You cannot hear Me any longer because, you are too busy taking care of the home bound. Because your spirit is sleeping and your mind is dull with all those pills that you are taking.”
Immediately, I got up. I headed to the kitchen. I grabbed my pill big box. I headed to the toilet. I proceeded to flush nearly $1000.00 of prescription drugs I have been faithfully swallowing for that many years.
I came back to the computer. I wrote a resignation letter to my position as a volunteer in the Senior Companion Program. I picked up the phone and cancelled all appointments with 5 specialists in-charged of my health. I made a note to prepare to sell my Kia Sophia.
Then I dropped the bomb on my children. “You are insane!” some of them retorted and quit their mom.
They had had enough of my crazy whims and mental insanity but, this was not insanity nor a whim after all. Years later it has proven it not to be so.
To conclude, for the record, it is now Thursday, October 20, 2016. Tomorrow will mark 30 years since October 21, 1986.
That is another remarkable date in my journey of life in the Presence of my Father/Creator. That was the date when Father marked me as a writer to honor His name.
The honor of our Father/Creator’s name. what does that mean? A mouth full of misunderstanding but, not outside of the Father/Creator’s control & dominion & knowledge.
His wisdom is unfathomable. That will be the subject for subsequent posts on this line. Why?
What the honor of the Father/Creator’s name got to do with mental insanity? The answer to that question gives way to the Innovative Approach to Mental Health that needs to be proclaim to the whole world if there is to be any hope to restore our sanity to avail us for eternity. End of quote.
Much Reflection Needed …?
Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 8:26 am.
I cannot by any stretch of my imagination regress to any resemble of my old ways. But how on earth can I do what I intent to do? Inevitable, I do as I done before at the least provocation.
You Are Being Self Conscious. Quit Trying To Perfect My Work …?
Oops! I hear You big time! What a trip am I! No wonder why the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. O but Your faithfulness to Your words.
I Am In Control, Relax …?
- O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Pause. Reflect. Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.
- Today is your 12th anniversary of your return to do what I called you to do since 1985.
- I am aware of your misgivings as you read Yedidah’s article on Daniel 8. You can now confirm all stated in that article, but!
- The backlash from Yedidah and her followers still lingers inside of you. The reading of the article brought that backlash to the surface.
- Thus, the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. Even so?
- Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being even before you met Yedidah.
- No need for you to hold on to that backslash. Yedidah and her followers cannot comprehend what goes on with your life in My Presence. Let go. I am in control.
- Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished.
- I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake, but! You are human.
- In your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time.
- That is why I have had to pour the life in My written words slowly and gently in order to fill you with My Spirit in those words.
- That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.
- What is happening to you now?
- I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
- This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.
Dear Reader, I am sure you now have a better understanding of this journey of mine. Ready now to post for sure.
Here are the links to my last two books in case anyone is inclined to find out the details of what’s happening and it’s all happening in my life’s journey:
The Turquoise Rose Allegory My Lifes RealityEnjoy! Deploy!
Much love to all. thiaBasilia.