A new pain. My right leg now hurts at my groin. I limp when I walk. It came to me, “You are a lame duck!” What? Coming to think about it that’s what my situation with Ahmad amounts to it.
What Is A Lame Duck? …
It can be an individual who has been elected for a definite purpose but! Is unable to fulfill his purpose for lack of support. I been elected to bring good news to Ahmad but Ahmad is no longer support me. Wow!
O My Master! What A Way To Sober Me Up …?
I been trying to live up to the allegory of The Turquoise Rose Ship! Been trying to sail on high seas away from the jurisdiction of this world. But I find myself sailing still on these lower seas of pain and lack of gain.
What Am I Now To Do With This Knowledge, My Master? …
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 1:58 pm.
I hear You, “Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”
Thanks, My Master! The Oppression Of The Moment Is Brutal, But! …
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 6:49 pm.
Relief. A cup of mint/basil tea helped. The time? In a moment this oppression shall be history. The noise around me. The silence inside. The pain in my right hand and shoulder?
Your Grace Is Sufficient Unto Me To Suffer It All Graciously …
I’m going on. Sober on lower seas. Fearless on higher ones. Either way? You are at the helm of The Turquoise Rose Ship I’m sailing on. No need to be overwhelm.
Open The Door! Turn On The Light. Hit The Sack. That’s That!
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:10 pm.
I did but it didn’t help. Guess that was not that! Excruciating pain. So be it. I refuse to complain. A cup of pure coffee with honey seems to be helping.
You Are In Control. No Matter What? I Refuse To Complain …
Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 10:56 pm.
I am not out of ideas to help myself, but! I’m replete with respect and fear for and of You. I will not repine. I wait on You with patience and composure. Shut off pc. 11:20 pm.
Ready To Talk Turkey Again, My Master. You Know It, But!
Friday, September 13, 2019 at 6:04 am.