Your heart was set in reconnecting with your child, but! It did not happen. By daybreak? You were hoping for Ahmad to show up but it did not happen. You kept working on the book cover hoping to ignore your pain and discomfort.
You laid down hoping for sleep. You could not sleep. Finally! The phone rang. Ahmad on the line in a euphoric state announcing he now had time for you. In your turn? You spill out all the things you have listed needing replenish.
You thought Ahmad would get your things and come to bring those things to you. By the time you realized Ahmad was not coming your pain had accelerated. You kept ignoring the pain, but you recorded:
- All day spent in optimizing book cover. Much reflection while working. My arm hurts badly. I can’t go no more. Will try to sleep. I wait on You. Turning comp off. Something is not right. Will see. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 1:09 am. I’m back. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:01 am. Strange things happening with the computer and the Internet, but! I am not troubled about it. You are in control of it all.
My child, O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Your willingness to endure rather than return to your old ways delight My Being.
Yes, My ways to deal with you are effective to produce the integrity of your character.
Today, Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 8:13 am I am revealing to you how the ills that Ahmad have caused you are still festering your being. Why? Because, Ahmad has never once recognized such ills.
The time is coming now for Ahmad to level up with you. That’s what he was trying to tell you yesterday when he told you he now had time for you.