I am free, but! I am still human. I do wonder. I have a hard time waiting on You to act in our behalf. In reality? I have a hard time waiting for things to change, but it’s not happening. No change.

The Sad Part? It’s Not Really Hard At All, But!…?

It’s just sad to see Ahmad et all struggling, struggling, struggling. No time to stop. No time to smell Your roses. All the time? Smelling the smell of carnal pleasures, whether religious or otherwise— success, food, vacations, entertainment the list goes on.

Even So? You Bless Some Of Us With The Fragrance Of Your Presence In Our Lives …

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 3:41 pm.

Well? This is some four hours later. Slept for about three hours. Feeling surprisingly good. Updated files and links. Absolute silence. No news from Ahmad. But the fragrance of Your Presence? Sustains me in peace.

What A Difference From The Turmoil In My Past …?

Yeah. It’s not altogether smooth sailing 100%. No. there are waves of panic. Moments of mind churning junkie carnal thoughts, but! O my Master! You control those thoughts of mine now. What a blessing!

My Life In A Turquoise World Of Fertility …

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 7:20 pm.

Life goes on. No change that I can tell. Am I struggling to make things better? O my Master! My life now? You have filled me to capacity with Your love and wisdom. No need to struggle anymore.

To Sleep On Monday, September 23, 2019 At 11:56 Pm.

Slept for more hours than usual. Got up to take care of myself. Finished around 6 am. Watered my plants. Been reading Dereck’s long email. Started reading his free book. Reading it all? I wondered.

Here We Go. Where Are We Going? Nobody Really Knows …

Tuesday, September 24, 2019 at 7:48 am.