Our Relationships Are Lame Ducks. Harmony And Peace Are Elusive …
Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Negative Issues Keep Popping Up …
Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 3:48 pm.
Have not heard from anyone except from Ahmad. Things are, for the most, all negative if we really pay mind to what goes on in the world. Anyhow?
You Are Aware And In Control Of It All, My Master …
No matter what it all looks like, I refuse to despair. Sooner than I can imagine You will reveal Yourself to me. You will place me up one more rung in the ladder of steadiness. I wait.
My doings …
I have posted. Ate. Drank. Taken care of all chores. Perhaps You’ll bless me with more sleep now. That happened at 3:48 pm. I couldn’t sleep. Got up to drink turmeric ginger tea. Got busy creating graphics. Also, it took me a long time to find some links to send to Roxana for health reasons. I also talked to Ahmad a couple of times. It’s now Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 9:11 pm. Maybe I can sleep now. Awake at 12:13 am)
Now What, My Master? …
Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 1:16 am.
Tomorrow will mark my 33rd anniversary since You set me strait in the way You meant for me even before I was born. You are in control of every minute detail of my life. What a comfort! So?
Perhaps Begin The Reformat Of Meditating In The Promise Land? …
It’s coming to me to set in a series the latest written books for this stage of my journey in Your Presence. Where would I fit Meditating in the Promise Land in the series. Hum! Should it be titled and subtitled,
Meditating In The Promise Land … An Extended Adventurous Voyage On A Turquoise Rose … ?
It’s a long title but I’ll work on it. You’ll show me how to fit it all. I’m sure. Up at Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 5:49 am. Cold. Put on jacket. Ate. Troubled with all findings right now.
Master? Fears Are Knocking At My Mind’s Door …
Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 8:30 am.
You have brought me back to the issue of parasites in our bodies. I been aware of this issue, but I have not been able to do anything about it. I feel that now the issue is out of my control. Help! My Master, HELP!
The Truth? Our Life’s Styles On This Earth Are All Out Of Control …?
We know what to do about so many things, but we do not do them, so? our bodies are deteriorating because of our neglect.
What Is The Use Of Knowledge We Cannot Or Would Not Implement? …
I’m corralled in my own carnal self again. I’m so disgusted with my utter inabilities! I can’t take my eyes off of our human’s carnal nature.
- The bugs biting me inside and outside. All the physical miseries I been going though all my life are actually caused by the parasite infection in my body.
- Ahmad’s father dying because of the same problem with parasites I am sure, but!
- We refuse to listen and turn away from our set ways of thinking and doing.
Three Major Fearful Issues Consuming My Mind …
O phooey! to all human’s way to get rid of our fears! I have been a sucker for paying mind to the human wisdom of help from the least to greatest issues in our lives. That’s the past. The present?
I Pay Mind To You And You As My First Priority. The Rest? …
Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 9:58 am.
It’s all subjected to Your leading and direction. No. I am not an Island. I am to keep to myself. I am to sit still in my great apartment. I am to keep silent for a time, but!
Sitting Still And Yet My Activity In The Realm Of The Creator’s Invisible Kingdom Shall Intensify Tenfold …
Your words to me on that memorable Shabbat in 2009—the day You asked for the key to the deepest part of my being. You keep that key unto eternity.
Unbelievable! Miracle! You Answered Me Verbatim! …
Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 11:44 am.
I heard of Ahmad’s father at the point of death suffering mini strokes or heart attacks not being able to control his bladder. Ahmad and family expecting his death, but it came to me,
- You let Lazarus die to serve to demonstrate Your power when You raised him from the tomb. I beseech You my Master, Let Ahmad’s father get up and announce, “I’m well! I’m going to the bathroom!” that’s exactly what happened.
Master? This Miracle Happened Mainly For My Sake …?
I just talked to Ahmad. This amazing happening did not impress Ahmad at all. In fact? It sounds like it angered him. I hope I am wrong. I beseech You my Master, set me free from what it sounds to me.
Up And Down I Go With People. Just When I Think? I Regret My Thinking …
Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 2:41 pm.
It never fails. I get enthuse about someone who seems to connect only to find out there is no connection at all! But that’s OK. I am no longer looking to connect. You know it my Master.
Your Connection Is What Counts …
In Your time we will all be connected with You. It is then when the bliss won’t be amiss in our midst. Harmony and satisfaction instead of retaliation and competition.
True. I Am Human. I Do Miss Other Humans In My Life, But! …
I am now aware of the meaning of following You, my Master. It means the loss of relationships, dreams, material things, or even my life with no regrets. So?
The Lack Of Human Fellowship No Longer Really Affects Me …
The best part? When I make an attempt to establish a relationship with someone to no avail, I drop the matter immediately. No explaining. No retaliation. No sorrow. No guilt. Instead?
Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance! In Whatever State I Am! …
That’s Your Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance! That You have invested upon me—something totally out of the reach of the human’s imagination. Going to try to sleep again!
O My Master! My Neck Hurts! Help Me …
Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 7:02 pm.
I can’t concentrate. Perhaps the position of the monitor is causing me this pain? I don’t know. I am at my wits end. (I slept for a couple hours. Woke at the pounding on my door. Finally, Yazeed came in. he brought me food and fruit.).
Master? The Pain In My Neck It’s No Longer That Important …
Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 10:20 pm.
But the things You are revealing to me through all the latest happenings in our midst are particularly important. What is it that You are shown, demonstrating to me?
I Can’t Quite Find The Words To Describe What You Are Showing Me Again …
For I have seen this matter before and written about it. But now? It’s different because it’s coming from You not from my own observations of human behavior. What am I talking about?
I Am Talking About The Anger, Resentment, Envy, Jealousy In The Human’s Mind And Heart …
These ugly traits within us come to light whenever we spit out, “I told you so!” or “I knew it!” “I also pray!” And on goes the list where these traits surface, but!.
We Don’t Realize This Matter About Ourselves Until You Deal With Each One Of Us Individually …
O my Master? You are now dealing with me about this matter. I am not just sad because this people do not appreciate my answered prayers.
- It’s more than just sadness, but! Unless You deal with the matter? I don’t even know exactly what to call what I am feeling.
- Maybe be a ‘pain in the neck’ for real not just an expression? Hahaha!
- Will sleep on it. 2:03 am
Wow! Woke At Last Renewed! Free! Hopeful! …
Monday, October 21, 2019 at 5:10 am.
I’m besides myself with joy and hope. My wicked human heart full of Anger, Resentment, Envy, Jealousy shall be no more! The best part?
Not shall be, but! It’s a reality right at this moment. WOW! …
AMAZING! I was so ever dejected when I first went to bed last night; to find out the truth about my wicked heart beyond all my miseries was just too much!
What Happened Next …?
I tried to laugh about it but the humor was not there at all. I crawled in bed practically screaming with the neck pain. On and off I slept. Little improvement each time I woke up, but the last waken up? Much improvement. It was around 4:30 am. I got up. Fixed in a ball the pomegranates and red grapes Yazeed brought me last night. In front of the computer now. Clicked to check the Net. Same old stuff from the human mind and heart in my inbox. Suddenly! I heard, “The wicked heart!” quickly I opened up the Scriptures. Wrote in the search line for the whole Bible: ‘new heart’. WOW! Only two verses in the whole Bible for response—the exact two verses addressed to me personally!
No Kidding! O My Master! You Are For Real In My Life! …
And You are simply AWESOME! I never know how You aim to end each dealing with my human wickedness in relation with the rest of my human fellows. But! You are pointing out even the order of the two verses You gave me. Wow!
About My Fellow Human Beings:
Therefore say, Thus says the Mighty One of Israel: I will gather you from the peoples and assemble you out of the countries where you have been scattered, and I will give back to you the land of Israel.
And when they return there, they shall take away from it all traces of its detestable things and all its abominations, sex impurities and heathen religious practices.
And I will give them one heart—a new heart; and I will put a new spirit within them; and I will take the stony unnaturally hardened heart out of their flesh, and will give them a heart of flesh sensitive and responsive to the touch of their Mighty One. [Eze 18:31; Eze 36:26; 2Co 3:3]
That they may walk in My statutes and keep My ordinances, and do them. And they shall be My people, and I will be their Mighty One.
But as for those whose heart yearns for and goes after their detestable things and their loathsome abominations [associated with idolatry], I will repay their deeds upon their own heads, says the Mighty One of Israel.
For My Own Self …
And I will vindicate the holiness of My great name and separate it for its holy purpose from all that defiles it–My name, which has been profaned among the nations, which you have profaned among them; and the nations will know, understand, and realize that I am the Master—t he Sovereign Ruler, Who calls forth loyalty and obedient service, when I shall be set apart by you and My holiness vindicated in you before their eyes and yours.
For I will take you from among the nations and gather you out of all countries and bring you into your own land.
Then will I sprinkle clean water upon you, and you shall be clean from all your uncleanness; and from all your idols will I cleanse you.
A new heart will I give you and a new spirit will I put within you, and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.
And I will put my Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you shall heed My ordinances and do them.
And you shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; and you shall be My people, and I will be your Mighty One.
I will also save you from all your uncleanness, and I will call forth the grain and make it abundant and lay no famine on you.
I Bow My Being To Worship You O Mighty One Of Israel …
Monday, October 21, 2019 at 7:29 am.
What is the human’s stumbling block here, my Master? Obviously for anyone to see. The stumbling block in all Scriptures is that we humans are reluctant to accept the fact that we are all the chosen Israelites.
Chosen Israelites? Chosen People? The Jewish! NAY! …?
Practically the whole world is infatuated—possessed by an unreasoning passion or the attraction to the idea of the Jews as Your chosen people, O Mighty One Of Israel, but!
O How Far From The Truth And Fact We Humans Can Be …
For the longest I thought like everybody thinks when we hear talk about the chosen people. Automatically, we think about the Jews in Jerusalem.
Ha! The Block Stumbling All Humans For The Most …
Monday, October 21, 2019 at 8:17 am.
O Mighty One Of Israel, it was not until You brought me to this region of Your world that You began to unravel all my misconceptions about You and Your chosen people. What have You shown to me so far?
- You have brought me here to judge me face to face.
- You have been dealing with all my misconceptions one by one since I came here.
- In short You have tried me in the furnace of affliction set for me on these grounds.
- You are wrapping it all to present it to Your people from here on.
- You have confirmed what You have revealed to me about the ‘Lost Sheep of Israel’.
- Absolutely no one human being can talk about You, Your ways, or Your people unless You choose to grant that privilege to someone indiscriminately.
- You have chosen to give me that privilege among several others of Your choice.
- You have empowered me to share it all through all posts published since 2006 when You instructed me to create the first website.
- Despite all my fears and miseries, You have kept and sustained me all these years since I came to this strange land and culture.
- Lastly? You compel me to share the stumbling blocks stumbling Your chosen people so far.
Now, Where Was I? Ah! My Uncleanness To Be The Cause Of My Pain And Misery …?
It’s a far-fetched notion but! O my Master! You are now demonstrating such fact to me. I cannot any longer doubt or deny it.
Thank Goodness! I Cannot Deny Your Mercy As Well …?
No kidding! That’s my daily fact of life in Your Presence my Master. You know it. Daily I go up or down depending on my reactions to whatever You send my way.
But! What Is Your Purpose For All Your Dealings With Me? …
Simple. You are demonstrating Your ways to deal with me as You are fixing to deal with each one of Your children even when Your children have not caught on to that matter.
Well? What Now? Close And Post? What To Headline It?
Monday, October 21, 2019 at 9:48 pm.
My soul is cast down as it was that October 21, 1986. I’m overwhelmed. Psalms 41-42 come to mind. Those words express more or less the way I am feeling and what I aim to do about it. Quote:
MASTER, I call upon You; hasten to me. Give ear to my voice when I cry to You. Let my prayer be set forth as incense before You, the lifting up of my hands as the evening sacrifice. Set a guard, O Master, before my mouth; keep watch at the door of my lips. Incline my heart not to submit or consent to any evil thing or to be occupied in deeds of wickedness with men who work iniquity; and let me not eat of their dainties.
Let the righteous man smite and correct me–it is a kindness. Oil so choice let not my head refuse or discourage; for even in their evils or calamities shall my prayer continue. When their rulers are overthrown in stony places, their followers shall hear my words, that they are sweet (pleasant, mild, and just). The unburied bones of slaughtered rulers shall lie scattered at the mouth of Sheol, as unregarded as the lumps of soil behind the plowman when he breaks open the ground.
But my eyes are toward You, O Yahuwah/Yahushua—my Master; in You do I trust and take refuge; pour not out my life nor leave it destitute and bare.
Keep me from the trap which they have laid for me, and the snares of evildoers. Let the wicked fall together into their own nets, while I pass over them and escape.
AS THE hart pants and longs for the water brooks, so I pant and long for You, O my Master! My inner self thirsts for the Mighty One Of Israel, for the living Mighty One.
When shall I come and behold the face of the Mighty One Of Israel? My tears have been my food day and night, while men say to me all day long, Where is your Mighty One?
These things I earnestly remember and pour myself out within me: how I went slowly before the throng and led them in procession to the house of the Mighty One Of Israel, like a bandmaster before his band, timing the steps to the sound of music and the chant of song, with the voice of shouting and praise, a throng keeping festival.
Why are you cast down, O my inner self? And why should you moan over me and be disquieted within me? Hope in the Mighty One Of Israel and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall yet praise Him, my Help and my Mighty One.
O my Master, my life is cast down upon me and I find the burden more than I can bear; therefore, will I earnestly remember You from the land of the Jordan River and the summits of Mount Hermon, from the little mountain Mizar.
Roaring deep calls to roaring deep at the thunder of Your waterspouts; all Your breakers and Your rolling waves have gone over me.
Yet my Master will command His loving-kindness in the daytime, and in the night His song shall be with me, a prayer to the Mighty One of my life.
I will say to my Master—my Rock, Why have You forgotten me? Why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?
As with a sword crushing in my bones, my enemies taunt and reproach me, while they say continually to me, Where is your Mighty One?
Why are you cast down, O my inner self? And why should you moan over me and be disquieted within me?
Hope in the Mighty One Of Israel and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall yet praise Him, Who is the help of my countenance, and my Mighty One. End of quote.
I Hope And Wait Expectantly For You My Master. You Are My Help. You Alone Are My Mighty One …
You know that is the fact in my heart, but in my frail flesh I feel that You have forgotten me despite all the blessings You always bestow upon me.
The Flesh Profits Nothing From Your Spirit, That’s The Fact …
And that’s what You have whispered to me right now. I also hear, “But you are not living the life of the flesh, you are living the life of the Spirit.”
“Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart! Wake up from your stupor—your state of reduced sensibility or consciousness!
There is nothing wrong with you despite the misery of the moment. Always remember, My grace is sufficient unto you to suffer all miseries courageously.
But what of such miseries? You must consider that the sufferings of this present time (this present life) are not worth being compared with the bliss that is about to be revealed to you all.
I am aware of the source of your stupor as you read the words of the prophesy about My descending to inhabit among you to be your Mighty One forever.
Once again you are frightened as you observe what goes with your loved ones and their lifestyles. Even so?
Relax. The power of My love and wisdom shall prevail over their lives no matter how it looks to you right now.
Relax! Wake up from your stupor! Go on! I am with you and for you. I never leave nor forsake you. I continue to work it all for your good.
Relax. Remember what I promised you some 33 years ago it’s now your reality:
- a settled place of quiet and safety, and you to be My minister;
- and if you separated the precious from the vile cleansing your own heart from unworthy and unwarranted suspicions concerning My faithfulness, you to be My mouthpiece.
Relax. Go Back To Bed. Rest Under My Everlasting Arms. I Am At Work While You Rest …”
Monday, October 21, 2019 at 11:06 pm.
Thanks for the rest. And thanks for Your words. Hope and courage are back. But what is it that threw me into a stupor? Ha! It’s enough to see the corruption in all areas of this world’s life, but!
The Suggestion That I Should Read Good Love Stories As …?
Tuesday, October 22, 2019 from 3:01 am. to 3:46 am.
They are doing for whatever reason just blew me downwards!
Why not read the greatest love story between the Mighty One Of Israel and ourselves? Beats me!
Regardless! The whole incident is now removed from my vision. It is not forgotten. It’s overcome by the power of Your love and wisdom.
On now to post the matter. Let it all roll on the wheels of Your infinite and passionate love for us all wayward children of Yours that we are.