…. Father? Here I am. As if You didn’t know it, but! Sometimes I feel like You don’t know I am here having me a difficult and trying time.

Other times? You descend upon and talk Your words of approval or instruction. Then? You go away. I am left alone in this world of my own.

Am I to remember Your words of approval and do as You bid me to do? Indeed! You go away, but! You never leave nor forsake me. From Your throne in my heart, You keep an eye on me.

How am I doing? Do I remember Your words of approval? Am I tending to Your instructions? Yes, but! For whatever reason I go on a tangent? Shame and misery invade my being.

Exactly Two Years Later? I Woke Up To The Loud Pounding …

Wednesday, December 18, 2019 at 8:40 pm.

The  time was 6:30 pm. Been asleep from 3 pm. I got up to check the matter. Two man working on water trouble on the roof above my roof. Came back to bed. A few minutes later? They pounding on my door!

My Attitude? Reasonable. Not Angry. Not Disturbed. I Headed To Check …

Sure enough? The poor fellows had dropped a needed piece. I was able to give it back to them. Felt good to be of help. Came back inside. Cold. Not feeling good at all. Turn on the heat.

What’s The Deal With All Of These Details? …

Wednesday, December 18, 2019 at 10:05 pm.

I see it, my Master! You are showing me the progress of my new life that began in 2017. But right now I am feeling pretty rotten. I can’t function. You know it. Going to bed. Hope for the best.

O But! I Am Fired Up! Health! Wealth! Restored! Your Faithfulness …?

Thursday, December 19, 2019 at 4:12 am.