Of course, such remembrance is quite disturbing, my Master, but You know it. So? I refuse to pay mind to any disturbance coming my way.
Instead? I’m Just Realizing Why All Of This Has Surfaced …?
Friday, January 3, 2020 at 3:10 pm.
You have enlightened me on the matter as recorded the previous post, but! I keep forgetting Your words with the least provocation. Except from that post. Quote:
Why was your lifestyle sinful when in fact you devoted your life to worship Me?
Your lifestyle was sinful for the exact reason that My children are now living a sinful worldly life while they devote themselves to worship Me, but!
My children are not aware that I have turned My face away from them.
Exactly as I turned My face away from you for the twelve years you went back to church against My instructions to you in 1986.
Those twelve years you were admired as a good Christian woman. You claimed and wrote and shared My written words but! I was no longer inspiring those words to you.
For twelve years you enjoyed the best this world had to offer you—your children support and loving care; your friends, brothers and sisters support and loving care as well.
Even so? You were dying not only physically but mainly spiritually.
Somehow you knew it to be so. You prayed and fasted. You did all kinds of things to help yourself, but! I could not answer you until the allotted time to do so.
All warnings in Your written words are designed to preserve our eternal life. All incidents in my life are for me to understand and pass it on to others.
I can clearly see now the reasoning beyond Your stern warnings. For the norm in Your children’s life now is to use Your name and do mighty works, but! It’s written, quote:
Not everyone who says to Me, Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father Who is in heaven.
Many will say to Me on that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name and driven out demons in Your name and done many mighty works in Your name?
And then I will say to them openly (publicly), I never knew you; depart from Me, you who act wickedly [disregarding My commands]. [Psa 6:8]
Granted! I Been Guilty Of Telling Others What To Do, But …?
Friday, January 3, 2020 at 7:19 pm
O my Master You have shown to me the futility of my doings. Better yet, You have empowered me to mind my own business, to let You mind other people’s business.
You Finished The Work Of My Transformation In The Flames Of Affliction Up To 2019 …
What do You expect from this transformation on this 2020 year, my Master? What do You want from me? Absolutely I reject my insidious wanting’s from my carnal self, but!
I Always Do What I Don’t Want To Do, So? I Vitally Need You …?
Right now? You know I am distressed because I don’t know what to do? I’m worn out waiting for change in my surroundings to no avail. Things are getting worse instead of better. Help me, my Master! You never give me any more than what I can take.
- Friday, January 3, 2020 at 11:16 pm. It’s the end of this day. No internet. No way to get number to retrieve money.
O My Master! Thank You! …
Saturday, January 4, 2020 at 1:18 am.
You never give me any more than what I can take. You connected the Internet just long enough to get the number, then? Disconnect!
- You also gave me King Dave’s Psalm 6 to comfort me.
- Plus, Ahmad came through with coffee around midnight despite the fact that he had been up since 5 am the day before.
- You really do not give me any more than what I can take.
- I’m back on track. Will work on graphics until You give me to go to bed to sleep.
On to bed. Full day plus! My 7th day of rest …
On to page 11.