The insidious question, How long yet to wait for the misery to end? I started to search for Your previous answer to that question, but I had to go to bed. I felt ill again.
- As I laid in bed tears began to flow. I felt so utterly discouraged not having a clue of the reality or the materialization of all that I recorded.
- I laid out my misery at Your feet. The miserable itching and overactive bladder interrupted my sleep several times. At certain point I dreamed.
A Dream. Holding A New Brown Belt …
Thursday, May 21, 2020 at 7:50 am. 8:01 am
I woke up to look for the meaning of the dream. You always lead me to find out what is it that You are telling me in my dreams. Quote:
The signification of a belt, or girdle, is a general bond; for it gathers up, encloses, holds in connection, and secures all the interior things, which without it would be set loose, and would be scattered.
That the belt denotes a general bond to the intent that all things may look to one end, is because in the spiritual world the end reigns, insomuch that all things there may be called ends; for the Lord’s kingdom, which is a spiritual world, is a kingdom of uses, and uses there are ends: thus it is a kingdom of ends.
But the ends there follow one another and are also associated together in a varied order; the ends which follow one another being called intermediate ends, but the ends which are associated together being called consociate ends.
All these ends have been so mutually conjoined and subordinated that they look to one end, which is the universal end of them all.
This end is the Lord; and in heaven with those who are receptive, it is love and faith in Him.
Love is there the end of all their wills, and faith is the end of all their thoughts, these being of the understanding.
 When each and all things look to one end, they are then kept in an unbroken connection, and make a one; for they are under the view, the government, and the providence of One who bends all to Himself in accordance with the laws of subordination and consociation, and thus conjoins them with Himself; and also at the same time bends them to their companions in a reciprocal manner, and in this way conjoins them with each other.