The sordid truth? I was sitting there wailing and actually enjoying feeling sorry for myself. How disgusting! Even so?

You Are In Control Of It All …

Friday, June 12, 2020 at 6:51 am.

You have a purpose for this moment of despair. At Your discretion You will lift me up. I am cold. Back to bed.

(Friday, June 12, 2020 at 4:34 pm been in bed since last night. Be still. Let go. Wait. Got up to read Scriptures about 1 hour ago. Now I must restart computer for update at 4:37 pm)

In My Despair Lost Not Knowing What To Do, I Heard Again, Be Still. Let Go. Wait …

Friday, June 12, 2020 at 4:51 pm.

This time on hearing Your instructions it came to me to head for bed. I did. While in bed, still, letting go of all things I could do to alleviate the new symptoms in my body.

• As I lay still, letting go of it all, You brought me to the Garden. Once there You revealed to me how You are honoring me to experience one speck of Yahushua’s bitter cup he had to drink.
• The bitter cup—the sins of the world. The impact of Your wrath. The cause of the human’s body decay. The corruption and destruction of Your so loved creation.

Genuine Experience Bound To Impact Us All …

Friday, June 12, 2020 at 10:21 pm.

You delight in my obedience. Your delight is my strength. I thank You for the honor to experience a tiny speck of Your wrath as well as Your sacrifice to restore our beings.

• We have sinned. We have rebelled against You. Yes, we, for of sinners I am chief. I was born and lived in sin but for Your mercy to restore my being for no merit of my own.
• All of that said, it becomes only a religious jargon unless You step in the human’s life to substantiate those words.

O My Master! We Have Made A Gossamer Of Words Lacking Substance Out Of Your Words …

Friday, June 12, 2020 at 11:29 pm.