Fear knocks at my door. What about if this new ear pain turns out to be a warning for worse things in my body? I never had earache before. It is almost unbearable.
- I am in tears. I can hardly work. I had forgotten the pain episodes of the past. This atrocious pain came up on me yesterday but it worsens this morning.
- It’s now Sunday, July 26, 2020 at 11:00 am.
- I am still getting stabs of pain but not as often or as drastic as before.
- I think the problem is with water in my ear, but I don’t understand how it turn out into this atrocious pain.
- I had water in my ear before with no problem it came out. What happened this time?
O My Master? I Don’t Want To Be Imagining Things. I Wait On You For An Answer …
Sunday, July 26, 2020 at 5:21 pm.
I have no clear answer yet, except seeing the reality of not knowing my own grown children much less knowing Ahmad. How can this be my Master?
Maybe All Things As They Stand Now Is For Me To Be Only A Spectator …
Sunday, July 26, 2020 at 11:16 pm.
I am witnessing the reward of the wicked. The wicked? Ha! It just came to me, the wicked within me and Ahmad. Hahaha! I was only thinking of the wicked within Ahmad.
There We Go! You Turned The Tables Back To Me Again! Thank You …
Of course, the wicked within me is suffering its just reward as it is with Ahmad’s wicked within himself, but!
- What a comfort! That wicked carnal self cannot access our new nature from You. We remain safe in Your secret place, O Mighty One of Israel!
- We have made You our refuge, our dwelling place O Most High by the power of Your love and grace not by our carnal power and ambition.
Well, Well, Well! It Is Just Coming To Me, The Physical Comes First, The Spiritual Second …
We must suffer the reward of the wicked before we can enjoy the reward of the righteous. Wow! What a revelation!
It All Boils Down To The Separation Of The Vile From The Precious …
Wisdom prevails! Your wisdom taking hold of my being. So? All the physical suffering cannot derail Your plan to restore Your creation.
And? All Our Shenanigans Of Lamenting, Not Understanding, Blaming, And Complaining …
Monday, July 27, 2020 at 10:16 am.