O my Master! We are coming now to the nitty-gritty of the matter. “Kiss the Son [pay homage to Him in purity], lest He be angry and you perish in the way, for soon shall His wrath be kindled. O blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied) are all those who seek refuge and put their trust in Him!” Psalms 2:12 AMPC+
Would They Now Quit This Site My Master?
Sunday, October 18, 2020 at 1:15 pm.
You are leading me to introduce this post with these touchy entries for many who are set in the religion of their choice. But You know all about it. I am on to he task.
Ready To Jump Off My Roof To End The Misery Of Such Knowledge, but! …
Saturday, October 17, 2020 at 11:02 am.
Recollecting that moment. Ahmad came for a visit after his absence of several days. I shared with him the wonders of my experience. Then I ask for him to share his stand. What? What I heard was like a dagger piercing my heart.
- “I want to move us out of here. I been searching for a building in West Amman where we can all live in the same building.”
- Shocking confession!
- What about this building?
- What about the restoration of this area?
- What about all that I stand for?
- No response…
- I recorded that day.
It Is With Much Sadness This Day Is Continuing For Me …
Sunday, October 04, 2020 at 4:17 pm.
The most devastating thing for my moment? Discovering that the words You have given to me for the restoration of this area are discarded plus I am expected to move out with the family to another area.
- Master? Unless You intervene for me You know I cannot withstand this blow.
My Soul My Heart Are Broken. Only You Can Mend Them …
Sunday, October 04, 2020 at 11:01 pm.
I cast the rubbish that broke them under Your feet! I’ll be still. I’ll let go, overlook, I’ll wait on You. It all as You empower me to do. My head hurts. I pray for relief. Thank You.
- I could hardly sleep. Tears. Perhaps accept defeat and go back to the USA? More tears.
The Human Mind Churning Spitting Out An Avalanche Of Thoughts …
Monday, October 05, 2020 at 1:03 am.
Master? Such is the way You have developed the saga of my life. O but how You are revealing these matters to me. And that just at the point when I am ready to terminate my miserable existence.
- Yes, I was so desperate I became suicidal.
- I wanted to jump from my roof to the ground but!
- You opened my eyes to see the aftermath of my haste,
- No I would not have die.
- Instead? I would provoke the people to gawk the scene.
- The police would have come and haul me to the Looney Toomey house!
- O well! No jumping!
- Just on You dumping!
- Dumping all that rubbish attempting to suffocate me.
O The Wonders Of Your Mercy! Fifteen Days Later And? …
Saturday, October 17, 2020 at 11:29 am.